i've come to a realisation. im most definitly not over raymond. i think im in love with him. well, it might not be love, but its the closest thing to it that i've ever felt. i love how immiture he can be sometimes :] like today, he was being an ass && poured like, half a bottle of water on my head. i didnt really care, to tell you the truth, b/c it was the end of the day, && who was really gonna see? but still, i chased him around the courtyard && then when i finally caught up to him, hes like "im sorry ashley, i love you" && then he gave me a hug. && i guess he was waiting for me to let go, && i was waiting for him to let go, && it lasted for forever. && i dont mean to sound corny, but i didnt want to ever let go. like, i felt safe. i didnt care that tommorow i probably was gonna be grounded for my math grade. i didnt care that i was soaking wet && freezing. i didnt care that things w/me and my friend Lisa were going down the tubes. i just cared that i was there, and he was there, and nothing could touch me. i mean, he says he likes me, and he knows i like him, but i guess he just doesnt anymore. and i dont know why. all i know is that that was the best feeling in the world, being in his arms. and i dont want to let it go.