still here about to get ready to leave home and head to germany. bleh. dont want to i wish i was here and i had a good job here i really hate leaving and saying goodbyes, i need to get my school on again, or save money so i can open up a pub or some shit. but yeah well hopefully the next time i come i will be changed in a good way and some things here will be awesome, untill next time

really missing alot of things. and really wishing i had some of them, i see friends around me with their family, with kids and all and me just here with nothing, i really hate being alone hahaha but eh hopefully this change coming up will be for the good.......

On one thing, and your not it

still in love with you, i dont know why.,.

and holy shit they are fucking weird, well some of them. well most of them lol

live on

remember to move on man, let it go, please remember that your better than this,. fuck it man, i've had better.

here I am again, its been a while since the last time. things are good, life is fun, miss home, miss friends, but in time I will be home,., i got some ideas for some tats i gots to finish my arm,.. i remember when i was against tattoos so much but now i dont know, but from my tat comming up when i get back i'm thing about getting the words love, trust and one more word but i cant really spell it right now lol hhahaha but in latin. i cant believe i fell for the 8, haha i'm telling ya i'm a sucker for them green eyes

its the simplest things that make you smile, remember, and love. a childhood friend out of the blue bringing you memories of the past when everything was so simple when riding a bike doing tricks with your friends was awesome, playing kick ball in the field in front of your house,. having water gun fights with the neighbors. Fourth of July was the day everyone was out and popping fire works,. New Years was also another day when everyone would get together,. Going to my grandmas house helping her with the garden and my grandpa too playing in the sand pit the swing set they bought me, my grandma taking me to the mall and buying me toys my cousins coming over and playing cops and robbers hahaha.. so many good times, growing up i've learned alot, alot of lessons learned, i have so much to write but eh another day...:] a note for myself. remember who you are, where you come from, who you love, who loves you, and never lose the kid inside. just smile and be yourself bro lol, and come back alive/

so wow i've been on here for like four years already since i grad from knee school thats pretty crazy yeah i remember when this site was popping like crazy and all of my friends i actually knew in real life ahhaha but its all mespace and facebook, four years, alot has happen, family and friends gone, some still here and alive but most i worry about. i lost a good friend like two months ago i felt real bad for not being there like everyone else. when i found out i almost fucking broke down, man he was a good friend of mine. I'm hope everyone else will stay safe.

so far so good, i'm not going to lie i do miss home, and i really do miss the family [cody kids ] but i kinda like it here i get more money for living over here and the girls are really big hoes, english girls like that american talk, damn i havent been this lucky since nam hahaha but no i love just put this place and with my friends and best friend here i'll do hella fine on a side note, i still think about lnr i have no fucking clue why, well i dont understand i really dont, she really did fuck me over, and she is hard headed like a mother fucker, but eh move on tard i cant getting stuck on the past, :] right now i love how things are going i hope it stays that way.

just seeing if anyone is alive outthere

everything is still not enough for you

and now everything is all fucked up...,,.. maybe because i didnt end the way i wanted><

dont want to ruin it but yeah

hooaahhh

i really miss her......

i am 21 now and yeah only thing, that is better is now i can get my own beer but yeah thats about it o and i can drink out in front with the cops saying shit

really reallly reaaaallllyyy freaking gay i have been acting all wierd i dont know why this shit is so fu.cking gay i guess its because i am going to turn 21 or something and guess what i saw her the other day i think i know it was her fuck man i wish i never met her she has been the wrost thing that has ever happen to me...............fuck man she really messed up my life, man she is so fucking mean aaaa she lead me on, she used me, and she left me without say a god damn word just left like i never knew her.....fuck HER!!!! at least britt told me off and what not and told me not to talk to her, and she could even say a word..............a.a.a.a.a.a.djfhaklfhwelaigusdhasklfhalkhfaog

well on saturday we went to my friends house for a party about 70% of ck went about 13 of us well when the kegs were done some dude hit one of our friends girlfriend knocking her down well when that happen all shit broke lose her boyfriend went up to dude and blasted him in the face we all jumped in, one dude had my friend in a choke hold or something and i went to go free him that dude swung at me i moved and he missed and then i just laid him out with two hits it was pretty crazy then we started to roll these guys then they had more friends come then all or our group went all out fucking crazy it lasted about 20mins or so we sent two people to the E.R. one of my friends just had a brusie on his ribbs and his head was hurting but all in all good times good times