i need to lose weight. and i never thought id say that... but this whole office thing + food addiction is making me not recognize myself. i look like one of those malnurished etheopians with a swelled stomach. even my parents say so. i was proud of it for a while now its just sort of hard to breathe and its not like i like food less. im eating chocolate as i type this. im also too much of a pleasure seaker to lose the weight. hmmm. crack, yes lots and lots of crack. fuck it i have a tummy. fuck.