Omg, i am moving back in with my dad and his girlfriend. Time to get back to housework everyday, and people screaming at me. Grrr..i dont know, i miss my dad alot, but im so use to living with my bro. I like it here. At least i still live close... O Well, ttyl. Always, Charles

Well, my uncle is gone, he has passed on. Just two days ago.. I had just arrived from school and walked in my house. I looked around and didnt see anyone, but my uncle, who was laid across the sofa in the living room having some kind of spasim attack or something. Think it was just another one of his normal "cramps" i walked to my room and dropped my backpack. Then i started hearing things break, so i immediantly went back into the living room. He was still thrashing around. I looked and saw he had broke a lamp near him, and was getting worried so i asked if there was anything i could do. He just kept screaming "Im Dead!" "Im Gone!" So i asked again. "9...1..1, call 9..1..1" So i ran into the dining room and got the phone. The lady on the line was trying to keep me calm, because at that point i was real upset, and crying.. She asked if i knew was a siezure was, and i said yes, but that it didnt seem like one, it seemed more advanced. She then got me on a cordless phone so i could monitor him. She asked me to see if i could get him to tell me whats wrong, he said 'Overdose" also, while i was on the phone, he had managed to knock over the sofa he was on, and put a large hole through the living room window. I started to hear the police and such, and ran outside to meet them, getting off the phone with the nice lady. After showing them the way in they had to restrain him by tieing him up, since he couldnt stop thrashing. My aunt met me at the house and asked what was going on, then the police started asking her about what medicine he took, and what drugs he might have taken. Next my big brother and granny, the other people i lvie with arrived at home from going out to eat. They were shocked, and worried, not knowing what was going on. They were asking me what had happened and i told them, granny was asked not to go inside, because mainly she is my uncles son. I stayed outside awhile talking with everyone, while they started putting yellow tape around our home, and blocking the street. After they took my uncle to the hospital we got word from my aunt who was following him to the hospital that he died befor they got him there.. After we did our sobing and such, detctives arived and started questioning us. Mostly just me, they kept for questioning about 30 mins, because i was the lead suspect//witness. Turns out he shot himself with a consentrated amount of Kocain... With Love, Charles A. Morgan

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I am so sick right now, i have puked a total of 6 times in the last 2 days, have an earache, mirgrains on and off, a cold with a real bad sore throat, and on top of that i had to go to school today...omg... Shoot me please

MY FRIENDS LIST IS GONE!!! Well its there but says i have no friends?! What the poo? Tell me what is wrong with it! Always, Charles

Well today was my first day of high school... and to tell you the truth it was easy. It was almost just like middle school, but easer... I mean, we only got 4 class each nine weeks, unlike in middle when we have 6, i got more friends, and the lunch is awesome, you can sit wherever, do whatever, and eat whatever at your own pace..its awesome:) I got some looks today, im so fine:) Ok im done, ttyl. Always, Charles

Der ResistanceAchtung! You are 23% brainwashworthy, 18% antitolerant, and 57% blindly patriotic Welcome to the Resistance (Der Widerstand)! You believe in freedom, justice, equality, and your country, and you can't be converted to the the dark side. Breakdown: Your Blind Patriotism levels are borderline unhealthy, but you show such a love of people from everywhere and a natural resistance to brainwashing, you would probably focus your energy to fight Fuehrer with furor, so to speak. Conclusion: Born and raised in Germany in the early 1930's, you would have taken up ARMS against the oppressors. Or even your friends' oppressors. Congratulations! Less than 5% of all test takers earn a spot in Der Resistance! My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 14% on brainwashworthy You scored higher than 15% on antitolerant You scored higher than 77% on patrioticLink: The Would You Have Been a Nazi Test written by jason_bateman on Ok Cupid

I think this is one of the most prettest songs i have ever heard... *I know there’s something in the wake of your smile. I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yea. You’ve built a love but that love falls apart. Your little piece of heaven turns too dark. Listen to your heart When he’s calling for you. Listen to your heart There’s nothing else you can do. I don’t know where you’re going And I don’t know why, But listen to your heart Before you tell him goodbye. Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile. The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yea. They’re swept away and nothing is what is seems, The feeling of belonging to your dreams. And there are voices That want to be heard. So much to mention But you can’t find the words. The scent of magic, The beauty that’s been When love was wilder than the wind.*

You are most like Death of the Endless. Humanity'sattitude toward Deaths gift is strange. Theyfear the sunless lands. It is as natural todie as it is to be born. But they fear her.Dread her. Feebly they try to placate her.They do not love her. Which of the Endless are you most like? brought to you by Quizilla Bull shit! Im not like death..o well, i answered truthfully, now you take it! Always, Charles

I am getting nervous. School starts real soon. Raven and I went to the high we are going to attend to get our ID pictures today. Mine turned out ok, but hers...lol... We toured the school looking for our classes awhile, having no luck at first but ended up finding most. Mommy (Ravens mother) then took me home and i went to my room. Watched VH1 and MTV awhile, played piano, exercised, then watched some music videos online. my uncle called about 3:30, wanting me to come to his house and cut his lawn. I said of course and went over. after i was done with the lawn he asked for me to wash his car, so i did that as well..then, hehe, we got me to vacume it out..fun fun:) I ended up getting 20 dollars for it, even thou i didnt want to be paid. My big bro had gone to a concert about 5:00, so i missed him when i got home. Now i sit waiting for him, to tell me about the concert, i couldnt go because i am not 18 yet.. that sucks. O and the band I wanted to see was RA, omg they kick soo much ass... Anywho, im done, going to go do some push ups, see ya lata:) Always, Charles

Its funny how you try so hard to get along with someone...try to let them know you like them as a person, hoping they can feel the same way about you, then they go and stab you in the back...isnt that wonderful? I think its just fucking dandy...o well, what can i do ya know? I havent done anything today.. I am extremly bored...sitting in front of this damn computer really hurts my ass but its all i have to pass time...*cries* Someone come get me and take me somewhere please! ...ttyl bye Always, Charles

Life has it's bumps, Has it's ups and downs, Life has its' smiles, Has it's very own frowns, But one thing we must know, Is that feeelings can be over come, But one thing we must know, Is that life will be sumed, Sumed into the stories, Stories we all know, Sumed into the mysteries, The things we can not show, These feelings we may have, Guilt, sorrow and lust, These feelings we may have, Will always always rust, Because only time can tell, The dred in our lifes, So keep your heads up, Because feelings may be lies.

Hi...I am currently over at my friends Chelsey and kinney's house (they are brother and sister) We just got out of the swimming pool and i am toast..i mean i am really burnt. O well, thats what i get for not putting on sun screen:) Yesterdy i got to see my friends Stephanie and jessica again. Them, Jess's mom, her two friends, and a girl named Calli and I all went to a lake they call the swimming hole. We swam around for awhile, made fun of each other, caught minnos..and jumped off of a cliff into the lake. After awhile the girl Calli swam up to me and sat beside me. She then put her hand on mine and smiled. I immediently turned and swam away not looking back at her. Then later she did it again! And she rubbed my leg..that was it. I then forth made sure she was nowhere near me. I also told jessica and she said she always does that to her guy friends. I Said "well that kinda makes her a slutt" Andshe replied "Well she made out with one of them after only knowing him for like 2 hours, so yeah" lol...by the way she is ugly as hell lol. o well, i guess that is it, i will write when i get a chance, cya lata. Always, Charles

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Hi everyone, whats up? I am ok, just chillen. I am extremly bored. Nothing to do..*pouts* I got to see my friends yesterday. I was soooo happy, i really missed them. Cant wait till next year. High school starts for me. New drama, new teachers, new friends. I just recently went out and got some school clothes...I am happy with what i choose..i am going to try not to wear alot of black this year, maybe look like a human? Lol, anywho, im not done shopping yet, still need more pants and a bookbag..and supplies..and lol some gym clothes. O well, i will get around to it sooner or lata. My life is going ok i guess. I wont bitch, just wish something cool and interesting would happen every now and then...dont we all? Guess what? Its hurricane season again. Last year we had 6 hurricanes hit Florida. What a bitch. Two nights ago a hurricane woke me up because it was raining and the wind was blowing so hard. I am just glad i dont live in southern Florida, they got it the worse. Well nice talkin to ya, till next time... Always, Charles "May you awake to life not death"

Guess what???? My dad got his girlfriend pregnant... Isn't that wonderful? No, its freaking awfull...they cant have a child...my dad already has two..and he isnt even taking care of us! I live with my grandmother...wtf. Plus by the end of the summer he is suppose to have a place to live finally..and wants me to move back in with him...i really dont know what i want to do...i am just really confused right now... I fucking swear, one damn thing after another...its so amazing how i put up with all of it... Charles

Hello... I am tired..bored..weak...and annoyed right now. Isnt that great:) Yeah..it is great, it is wonderful. I have been doing some things latley...like going to the movies, hanging out with friends and stuff...but i am still bored. Maybe deep down i desire more than what i can have..lol...like a spoiled little bratt:) Raven said that she is going to have a party next month and all of us can get together..it will make me feel soooo good to see all my friends again. I really have missed them over the summmer... Well, i am done. Talk lata, buh bye. Always, Charles

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Well, i get to write once more until next Monday...i'll make this one count. I am done. I've had it. Nothing is right anymore. I cant do nothing right. So forget it. I am just going to have to try to move on. It will take awhile...but hell, life is life, all i can do is move on. People can say what they want about me, but all that does is lead me closer and closer to suicide...so it would just be better to shh. It looks like i cant be understood. No one knows what im going through, and so i will keep it that way. I will not drive others down with me, i care to much for people...yeah yeah "Then why did you leave the one you cared for the most?" Simple, to not crush her with the pressure of my problems. I can hardly deal with it myself. I cant stand to see people i love (and if someone says i dont love them than you can go jump off a cliff, ill be right behind you)cry or worry. My problems are mine, selfish yes, but its for the best that my slow death is suffered alone....i will not be with someone else for a long time. The pain of this relationship lose is to great to move on fast...ill get over it. To the ones who acctually have stood by me...i love you. More than my own family...i'll find a way to make things better for myself...it will be done...just dont forget me...i wont forget you.... Charles Please, dont leave a hate comment...keep it to yourself.

Dear Everyone, I am in Virginia currently, staying with a relative. She, unlike most of my other relatives has got a computer, so I will use my time wisely, since I wont be here too long…. People in my family are keeping things from me…I don’t know what it is, but there is something they just wont tell me….i have asked and asked, but they just wont open their mouths….I stay up and cry every night, praying that things get better….but the more I seem to pray, the worst things get. But, what hurts more than anything…is that I feel its going to change me, and bring me down….actually, it already has. Raven, my one true love, the person I care more for than anyone else in the world…is gone. And its all my fault…my stupid feelings got the best of me, and I let her go, afraid that my new self would do something to crush our relation ship for ever…and it has…now she wants nothing to do with me, not talk, to let her know how things are…nothing…but you know? I really cant blame her..not one bit, she has put up with my shit for so long, and now I go and do something like this….i hate myself..i hope I die…I have no one else to take care of me the way I need,,I blew it away, so now im worthless….i don’t believe my life is worth anything anymore…and so I will always believe…. Raven, if your reading this, I want you to know something….you will always be in my heart. I LOVE you soooooo much….the thought of not having you in my life is killing me….but there is nothing more I can do…forgive me for causing you pain, it is the last thing I ever wanted to do…hopefully you can move on, im sure you can…you are stronger than me..you really are…I am happy to have had you as a girlfriend, you changed my life….please never forget me, because I will never forget you…. So this is it, im not using sitdiary until I get back from my trip…back to Florida, back to the hell I call home….all I can do is the thing ive been doing all this time, hope things get better… Always, Charles I’ll never forget you…my love.