Its weird how my feelings change so much, some how i had a really good day a few days ago, and ever since i havent had any breakdowns...i just dont understand myself sometimes, but hey, if i feel good, then im happy. I just wish things wouldnt have to seem so weird to me, i dont understand much of what my problem is....like a few days ago i kicked my foot through the wall in my bedroom, and just sat down, then started cring.....DUMB ASS!!!!! Lol, but o well.. Guess what? I might have to start going to church...my great grandmother thinks i should, thinks that it will help the way i see life...i told sure, that it would be a good experience...but...i dont want to go, i just did it to make her happy..i mean she is 85 years old. I just dont know man...things are so confusing at times and i cant stand it...But for all my friends..I LOVE YOU! Always, Charles