So I said it once I'll say it again. Best friends takes two. And I've come to realize that enough people have told me that you treat me like shit, you take me for granted. I'm starting to wonder if they see stuff that I wasn't. Now I'm seeing it, I'm seeing whats more important, and how easily your distracted. And all that jazz. So you don't put me on the top of your priorities list, thats okay. But that also means your not on top of mine either. Because if I can't rely on you well then why should you get the privelage of relying on me. So no I won't be there everyweekend waiting for us to hang out. I'm going to find other things to do, and give other people a chance.. I said best friends forever. I mean it forever. I still mean it when I say call me anytime. Day or night. I still mean it when I say I love for all that you are. And I will always mean it. I don't want to grow apart, and I'm going to do my best to make sure that doesn't happen. But I can't do it all alone. Because I'm only one half. We've had to many times to let it all go and to many people don't understand that, they just think.. fuck her.. you don't need that shit. Your one of the only people in my life that I will let stress me out, because I care about you, and I don't ever wana lose what we have. So we can still relate ourselves to the people on the street. We can still play Mario party. We can still be Best Friends. But I'm not hurting myself anymore. And I'm not letting you hurt me. I'm going to have other priorities. And be happy. For what life has offered me. This time I'm going to take it.

Fuck it, I don't care anymore. Honestly I'm going to let it go. Shit happens, I'm fucking sick of it. Make new friends Kelli. Move along. Make life happy. But don't rely on anybody. I love him. He makes me smile. He makes time to keep in touch. He makes me feel better. He's been there. LoveLOVELove. Move here. Marry me. Kidding. But serious. You are amazing. And cookies work cookies. That he steals for us. That we eat when we sit on Unit 81. When he makes fun of me for being so blonde. It's like we're kids. Boys make fun of girls. Girls blush and act silly. Crushes that wont ever happen. But still you love having them <3333

Maybe I could do better. Maybe I could be treated better. Maybe it wouldn't have to suck. Maybe. I dunno, I love my friends, but I'd never do that to anyone unless it was severe. I'd never bail or say I was coming and just not show. So guys don't give me excuses. I actually don't care anymore. One day I won't be in calgary. And soon enough it won't matter. I'm sick of being the wallflower. I'm sick of being unpretty. I'm sick of not being given a chance. And I'm sick of being alone.

"Home is where the heart is" Some things I've seen have made me jealous. Some things I've seen have made angry. Some things I've seen have made me cry. And some things I've seen have made me hate you. Fuck off. Get your own friends. Your own job. And your own god damn fucking life! UG@HLGFJ ILoveYouFriends? DidYouMissMe? IRLYmissedyouu. Home.Sweet.Home.

Bring you down. Tell you to be something. That you aren't. Don't let someone make you cry. Unless their worth crying over. Never give up on yourself. Because even when you don't think it. You will make a difference in someone elses life. And you have made a difference in someones life. You are what you are. If they don't want to accept that. Then fuck them. They aren't worth any of your time. Not a single millisecond. And just because they're finally ready, ready to listen to you. Doesn't mean your ready to tell them. Or that you care to tell them. Because when you needed them. They weren't listening. It's your life. You run it how you want to. Stay positive no matter how hard it seems. And don't let the little things get you down. If God didn't think you could handle, What he has dished out for you, He would never have dished it out to you. Thats the secret to life. Be happy. Be positive. Live By Good Vibes. No matter what life hands to you. No matter what life takes from you. You are your own destiny.

So you know what rules. Bronchitis rules. Just Kidding. It doesn't at all. And I'm sure I have it. But what rules more, Is that I will be sitting at the doctors, all alone. Fuck yes. I'm really pumped.

fuck your mom. for serious. i don't want to fight. Bb grrrrl, fighting is lame, and we're both on edge, so lets not be. I want to call you, but your probz still kinda ticked at me. I thought about it. Thursday is warped tour..which is like our day, our day that like started fun summers. And then Wasa. It's all coming so fast. As I rode on the train and bus I was sooo mad at you, and fuck I wanted to just scream. Then I listed to songs and they made me feel better. I got all stoked on how we're going camping. And how we can go earlier. All our new adventures and shit. It'll be good times. I don't want to be edgy at you anymore. I don't want you to be edgy at me. Frriiick. Bffforlife//Ipromised.

" I have no legs, I have no legs." ♥ Why are me and isis so rad? Because we watched fucked up movies. Sing songs. Krush on Dr Hook. Ride our bikes to pick up. Get a million donuts. Go to seven eleven lots. Smoke big dooobies at the park. Smoke big doobies on the way home, And see my parents, And sketch. HAHAHAH. LoveLoveLoveLove. I love you isis.

Do you just call me to rub it in my face. Do you call me do your dirty work for you. So you can be out having fun. Well fuck that. Great job doing what your mom wants. Great job. I am so mad right now. Could you try a little harder to piss me off.

I love Mr. L and Shaun. And losing everyone... Sayin fuck it.. And going on rides. Then somehow Vaughan finds us.. In the one bazillion people. I love peters funnies. Kalon's our lady peace videos. I however don't love drug dogs.. Or large native men checking me out. One day I'll get a gravatron, Invite shaun and Kevin over and hotbox it. Best of all, Getting Mcdonalds for us and some drunk people. Good times Good times.

I hate being on soup & then garbage at work, it actually makes me want to kill myself just a little bit.. and I have to do it again today =( if my thumb still hurts as bad.. I will say I can't scoop soup and then I will have to floor aide. I'm soo smart. I need to get my nails done. Uhm stampede rules my life at night. And seeing 100000 more people rules even more!! I love how high the fireball goesss...SHIIIIT. AND OMGZZ we found me a ride pass.. ON THE GROUND! An all day fucking pass!! Going again tonight AND tomorrow. I don't think I've ever gone to stampede so much. But I'm still really stoked on camping. Dear Kat.. don't worry about my sister...your fucking coming. =) Love love Love

So stampede was semi lame, I don't even know why, but it was really depressing that there was no zipper. Actually. I wouldnt have chosen anyone else to go with than Kat though, because going around and seeing everyone and riding rides till we're sick is the only way to roll and the only place where its at. It was so nice seeing like 1000000 people :)... Those pictures make me miss last summer. I don't know if I miss those particular events, but I really do miss alot of those times, and how people acted. Frick. And Jonny's voices are the best thing to sleep to. I can't handle the drama. Omgggzzz. Boy, I don't even think its that I want you to love me, I want you to look at me and think I'm pretty and I want you to want me, but I want to make you feel the way you make me feel. Fuck.. I think that only makes sense in my head, but I don't know how else to put it.. whatever. I sometimes want you to hurt like I have. But thats not fair. And I would rather you be happy. One day though, I will look like those girls you looked at, and you won't get another chance. Then I will win AHAHAHAHA. I'm so sick in the head. Thats all. Work & moo stampede :)

I was just in a realy nice mood. Then I talk to you and you whine.. and you know what it pissed me off. Because boys won't even give me a chance and I'm stuck alone. If I had anyone.. I'd just enjoy the fact that I had someone..and love it for what it was. Rather then dwell. If it didn't work out the first time what makes you think it will work again? And yea it probably is really hard, and I'm not mad at you, but honestly, your like fighting me about it? It's like you can't take it out on him so it falls down on me, and if I ever partook in anything of breaking you apart, I never ment to, even though I missed you so much, I was happy because you were happy. I swear to god. I am so sick of being alone. I am so sick of seeing him and telling myself I don't like him. Fuck. Why couldn't you ever give me a chance. Why? I see you sitting there, and I want to come sit with you and I want you to hold my hand and hug me and I wish we could have had something, anything, but you got what you wanted with me.. ... In the end, if it didn't work out the first time.. why would it now? I feel like shit now.

So I love this. It's better this way. Justin.. you and me..think exactly alike and get everything before everyone else does. I love us and motion city..and fetching u water...and trying to make you feel better. Ah.. let us seriously be friends forever!! We are so weirdly alike. Petahs party turned out to be really nice with the consideration I went alone, but Steffie came..and fucking penner and alisha and kristy!! It was a good night and I got to have a sleep over.. It ruled. Last night tho, I was like overstoned... it was nuts. But whoever fucking threw beer cans on my lawn and cigarette buts... ur a dick.. I will trash yo lawn. YEA! But yea no mo parties.. just get togethers. Thats easier on my life anyways. No mo drama. Just love to my friends, and sorry to anyone that had a bunk time last night. Actually, wasnt the dopest party but it wasn't really my fault.

Skatin with my bro is where its at. And playing mario party with him is neat to. But most of all when I'm crying my hardest, He is the best because he comes, Hugs me and listens to me. And promises to help out more. Little brothers are sweet. And turns out I rly love my sisters to. And I could never find it in me. To hate any of my family. Even when they make me most mad. I love them.

for a day..try and find me but if i don't come back then i won't look behind me all of the things i thought were so easy just got harder and harder each day I am so mad. But so happy. It came, and it's done, no baby for me. Thank you god, for not letting me be the one in a million who screwed up. Thank you for a second chance. Dad, please sit and think about my good things and not my flaws. Please. I love you to much, not as my Dad... as my friend, so stop acting like a dick. Actually. I punched the wall so hard today and then I kept doing it, because I was so mad, and no matter how loud I yell or how much I control myself, I can't get through a sentence without you interupting and putting your peice in. I know you and Mom can't fight anymore, because you love each other and you don't want to fall apart again, but don't get mad at me in place of her. I am trying so hard for you to realize that I clean my butt off, my parties never get way outa control, and even though my grades aren't Danielles, and I'm not a boy, can't you just give me a break for being what I am. Please? I miss my friends. But at the same time. I don't know if I can handle drama. I don't know if I can handle loss. And I don't know if I'm even good enough. I did something stupid. I enjoyed it. But it wasn't worth it. I won't lie...14 and 15 year olds are cool. Even though their parties can be a little PCP bunk. Funny kids.. with cute moms and good talks and adventures. Good times. I wish.. that there were more accepting people, and that we didn't all stick to the same type of people but that we could all just accept one another and party. So I'm thinking all the people I want at my party... won't get along, so I'd have to have like 5 different parties and group everyone... thats fucking gay.. stop judgingguysstop. I got a new job. I look cute in scrubs. Hello patient here is yo food. I wish I was skinny.

Dear Jason, Even when you don't think it, I love you. Even when you don't think it, you've had a major effect on me. You've made me laugh, smile, cry, love and so on. You've given me that feeling that your so happy you could burst. You've made me feel like that. You've given me more confidence than alot of people. And when I'm with you i always feel good about myself. You reassure me.. that I'm okay..that I'm good enough and that no matter what I will fit in..and everything will be alright. When you think you can't talk to me, I'd always listen. And yea anyone can say that. But honestly.. when your a million miles away...and you feel alone.. call me.. anytime.. any place. I honestly don't think there are any words to describe how much you really mean to me. No matter what you do to me, I will always forgive you. I don't know why, but you just are so special..there is to many good things about you, and they completly cancel anything that could be bad out. Completly. So when you think no one cares. And when you think that you have no one to turn to. Try and remember me. Please. I promise. I will never turn my back on you. I love you boy. ♥ ♥ ♥ More than any internet diary could explain. This comes no where close...

You know I realized, A part of me really doesn't care, If I make it there or here. I just care that I am happy. So if I end up singing at a train station. Watching my dog, And appreciating the people that help. And just being a kind person, With a good heart, And a pretty voice. I think I'd still be happy. I've learned that all the riches in the world. Wouldn't make me happy, unless I got them, By doing what I love. And I love singing, I love music, I love people. If I don't end up doing something, That has to do with those... I don't think.. I'd be happy. And srsly, if produce music someday, I will give the people at train stations, A chance, Everyone deserves at least one. Life is so beautiful. Really it is. To many people don't understand... What beauty is.

I miss my babies. I don't wana go tonight. And i've never wanted my time to come so bad. I don't want to be in calgary anymore still. Srsly.

So there was an accident on the weekend, and this boy I worked with, his girlfriend who is friends with my sister got hit by a car, she was lifted off in a stars ambulance helicopter.. this happend down at 130th, holy shit, I had no clue it was Bobbi until literally 5 minutes ago. Appearently she is barely concious. This actually so sad, I feel so choked up right now, I don't even know her but I know that she is really nice to my sister and that her and Max have a really cute thing going on... point being, everyone take a second to say a little prayer for her, and please God let this girl get better.