Fuck. I fucking hate myself right now. What was it worth. He's being a douche. And she is honestly mad at me. That's fucking gay. Fuck yeah. Go kelli, Whenever you want to do something.. That might make you happy.. Everyone else ends up mad. I can't take this fucking drama anymore. I wana hermit in my house and not come out. Because then there won't be anymore drama bullshit. And I won't be able to hurt anyone else. I wana scream right now. No I don't. I want a smoke. That I don't need. That won't change anything. That I promised I wouldn't have. So I'm not going to. I just don't even know what to do anymore. Who to talk to. How to fix anything. I don't know what to do. I'm such a fool. I really don't know what to do. I really don't. I hate my life.