On an evening such as this, it's hard to tell if I exist

Feeling: fragile
Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines he wrote a poem And he called it "Chops" because that was the name of his dog And that's what it was all about And his teacher gave him an A and a gold star And his mother hung it on the kitchen door and read it to his aunts That was the year Father Tracy took all the kids to the zoo And he let them sing on the bus And his little sister was born with tiny toenails and no hair And his mother and father kissed a lot And the girl around the corner sent him a Valentine signed with a row of X's and he had to ask his father what X's meant And his father always tucked him into bed at night And was always there to do it Once on a piece of white paper with blue lines he wrote a poem And he called it "Autumn" because that was the name of the season And that's what it was all about And his teacher gave him an A and asked him to write more clearly And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door because of the new paint And the kids told him Father Tracy smoked cigars And left butts on the pews And sometimes they would burn holes That was the year his sister got glasses with thick lenses and black frames And the girl around the corner laughed when he asked her to go see Santa Clause And the kids told him why his mother and father kissed a lot And his father never tucked him into bed at night And his father got mad whenever he cried for him to do it. Once on a paper torn from his notebook he wrote a poem And he called it "Innocence: A Question" because that was the question about his girl And his professor gave him an A and a strange steady look And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door because he never showed her That was the year Father Tracy died And he forgot how the end of the Apostle's creed went And he caught his sister making out on the back porch And his mother and father never kissed or even talked And the girl around the corner wore too much makeup That made him cough whenever he kissed her but he kissed her anyway because that was the thing to do And at three A.M. he tucked himself into bed his father snoring soundly That's why on the back of a brown paper bag he tried another poem And he called it "Absolutely Nothing" Because that's what it was really all about And he gave himself an A and a slash on each damned wrist And he hung it on the bathroom door because this time he didn't think he could reach the kitchen. This is from The Perks of being a Wallflower, I didn't write it. I also didn't write the title. I have written nothing other than this, just now.
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GUESS WHERE I AM

I am in the library sitting across from you

It is really boring and we are not talking

I hope sociologisting is fun
[Anonymous]
I effing love that book
Read it three times
Damn
I can so identify with that kid sometimes.
CURSES

Why haven't you updated yet?

This is your 21st comment, yo

Happy Mother's Day

-Rather Dashing
[Anonymous]
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[Anonymous]
UPDATE YOU SHORT LITTLE VEGITARIAN!!! lol, i love you, really i do!


Breeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeanna
[Anonymous]
your background makes me happy. it reminds me of when i was 5. love it.
I love your header quote. That's from Alice and Wonderland eh? I liked that movie. The teaparty people scared me when I was little though.
--Steph
I HEART EMILY MAYERNIK
[Anonymous]
thanks emilay!

youre missin the sweet weather up here!
well, that's awesome.
i hope you have fun.

i'm doing alright tho.
kinda tired.

have a good one!










-dixie
P.S. I like your shirt

Wow there are people playing frisbee outside - I want to go outside so bad

and this computer is a really loud typer
[Anonymous]
I Love You Emily!!!!!
wow, thats a great poem. Maybe i'll read that book...

-kelly
[Anonymous]
YEA I KNOW!!! And then sean is all petting his imaginary dead self's head. that was odd. but it was a sweet musical. and sean is hot. like, the hottest male I've ever met. It also helps that he's frickin sweet in every aspect of life.

Breanna
[Anonymous]
I <33 that poem and your background is wicked awsome
[Anonymous]
I do not know if you realized this but we have very good timing for getting online. As in you posted a comment right as I posted my new entry. Weird.
[Anonymous]
how's everything been going for you?
i haven't talked to you in awhile.










-dixie
Wow that is a really sad poem. It almost made me cry. Well okay it actually did make me a little teary.

<3 Pope John Paul II

<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3
[Anonymous]
oh my gosh!! i absolutely LOVE that book and that poem!!!!! I have it on one of my diary entries too from a few months ago... :)
THANKS EMILY WELL WHAT GRADE ARE U IN?
yes, and that's why I'm borrowing that book when you're done!!!!

Je t'aime aussi!!!!

Yvette (I feel like being french)
[Anonymous]
Strange... I forgot that I added you to my friends list!... thats kinda cool