I feel unsenseable and mostly messed up. I want to feel, lets say, sensible. I feel like the way my brain works is unsensible and all over the place. I constantly feel disshevled and all over the place at one time. This is probably not a good thing and it hurts my head. I want to be sensible, I want to feel a sensible way. I want to be happy for a long period of time or whatever mood I'm in for a long time. But more often than not, i feel all different things at once. I want to sit down in a chair and examine my life, i want to talk to someone and them analyze how i feel, because I never can. I can never make sense of how I'm feeling or what I'm thinking. I go to bed and feel like I have a heavy head on my shoulder, but wake up feeling fine. When you were little, did you ever have things just overshadowing your day because you were too little to understand how to fix it? That's how I feel. It's only before I go to bed, though. I feel like i'm responsible for deaths and depression and problems and complications of people I don't even know. Trying hard to speak and Fighting with my weak hand Driven to distraction So part of the plan When something is broken And you try to fix it Trying to repair it Any way you can I'm diving off the deep end You become my best friend I wanna love you But I don't know if I can I know something is broken And I'm trying to fix it Trying to repair it Any way I can