I´m sad...my family is going through this f$%#"$ economic depression or somethn...I hate it! I was so used to buying everything I wanted and having everything always! But now it´s so different.. I miss him...yesterday we went to this type of bar were bands play..he played my song and sang for me so beautiful...but I know he´s pretending.. I think sometimes we force this so much that it doesn´t work at all!... I feel bad..ugly..sad..pointless...I just hate myself today..