Listening to: Skinny Puppy - Tainted Love
Feeling: blah
round and round i go...where i stop no body knows!
back and forth back and forth! damn this! stupid cycle! grrr!! i wish to stop this madness but i just cant stand not look! i wish to take a little peek and see if he's there... i know what will await..and yet i still look. i know!
ha! ok something has haulted me..woo...augh. ok there was no him or i. nothing was and never will be.
no
im going to pretend there was nothing there. NOTHING and now i will know there was nothing. he's not real..no he's not real..we're not real. got it? good... ok im ok. yup theres nothing wrong. ok.
amor y paz,
paola
Yeah, good way to try and convince yourself. But don't worry, I do that all the time. I made an extreme mistake with one of my friend's boyfriends (ex now but not then). It didn't turn out well. I'm just realizing that I like him -- but I can't do anything, you know? Just, try and find middle ground and compromise with yourself most importantly and trust that you'll get over him and everything will work out.
Good luck. (Thanks)