hi, i'm kristina,
and
i have no fucking clue who i am. or what the fuck i do.
i couldnt tell you what i do day to day, i couldnt tell you how i impact the world, or what i do for people. i'm told i'm good, and that i'm a good person. but i dont even know. i'm watching myself lose control of everyhting around me, and i sit back and twindle my thumbs, a little while ago, i'd fight for everything i stood for, now i dont argue, i just sit back and agree. congrats, i'm a fuckin robot.
make no mistake i'm the last one to take advantage of the circumstances and i'm not going to be another reason for why you hate yourself, i got enough people with vendettas against me.
and speaking of people with vendettas against me, fuck you. you fucking senseless fuck. dont you get it? everything i've ever done has been to better you. and yet when things go to shit, its my fault, it's my fault i'm kept in the dark. fuck off. Fine, i'll be everything you hate. make sure you put my name at the top of the list, i'll fucking hand you the bullet to put in between my eyes. why? because i'm that damn good, i'm that damn good that i'll walk away from it, scared but surely breathing. so release the dogs that are my nightmares, and bring your sheep like posse, and lets roll. i wont hit the mat till everyone bares witness to the blood i fuckin shed.
i'm your biggest mistake, and you best allie. i'm all your fears and your dreams coming true. i'm the reason why you can breathe when you wake up, i'm the reason you cant sleep at night. i'm to blame for all your failures, but you'd be helpless without me.
taunt me, and watch me look the other way, and watch the world pass me by as i stay in this hell that i've created for myself.
now kiss my ass, as i walk away. just to kick it when i'm not looking. dont be jealous cause i got more heart than a hospital. tick tock, tick tock.
dont bother with your advice, and stick to your opinions, cause every keystroke is keeping me sane. and every word is a tear burried in the soil.
i hope that shits not about me