throwing up until your feet leave the floor. teary-eyes bloodshot and aching from the pressure. fingers covered in half digested food. a throat that stings. gasping for air while doing it all over again. and me wondering why im doing this to myself again. EDIT. oct.12th. me and marissa's rules. they start tomorrow, Thursday. they're pretty basic. 1-no fatting stuff. 2-drink only water. 3-under 300 cals. 4-exercise. 5-eat fruits and stuff. yeah, it should do. EDIT AGAIN. same day, Wednesday. it happens again. and this time blood came out. it got to the point where i couldnt stop. and i cant even hold down water. this new eating plan will be good for me. nothing to throwup. im dizzy, and dehydrated. night.