So for the UPDATE :
Lauren and I are officially no longer friends. And this time it was agreed on, it was something I wanted and she wanted. I'm sick of having the same gay fights for the same gay reasons. We were friends for way too long and that's just what happened. We just got sick of eachother I guess. And instead of it being something that we were proud of, a friendship that we wanted, it was more like something that we had to do, like we were forced to be 'best friends'. So no instead of being 'best friends' we're not friends at all. And I don't think that I ever imagined myself saying this but, I am totally okay with it. And I don't hate her; I don't want to start any drama. I feel like I'm breaking up with some guy, for an actual good reason. We are just two different people and that's okay, just our personalities don't mush well.