well, i hadnt seen you in a month
i mean i missed you of course
but i was doing okay
in fact i even considered myself happy
content was the word i suppose
and then a month later
there you were sitting right next to me in the mall
you told me you missed me
|--this--| much
i told you you're gf was ugly
you asked me why i had to be so cute
and inside i begged
and pleaded
for you to pick me over her
i wrote you an email
about how much you kill me inside every time
how much you break my heart every time
and you told me
'it kills me too, thats why i come back'
i came to a realization
you never lose
and its because
you have everything you could ever want
two girls that adore you
and of which you adore them
yes? no.
i came to a realization
you dont want anyone else to have me
even though you cant
i asked you
you told me you'd be jealous
see, you hold me down on purpose
you make sure i cant get away
you make sure that you dont miss out
well im sorry
and i wholeheartedly apologize
but you're not going to hold me down any longer
you're going to call i know
you're going to want to hang out
and you're going to email
but my darling, my love, my baby
it wont be the same
you'll lean in for that kiss that i'd once let you steal
and this time i'll back away
i'll turn my head
oh it'll hurt
it'll hurt like hell
turning away the one guy i truly trust
turning away someone i've loved with every part of me
but i'll do it
because it's time to let go
i'm tired of you holding me down
i'm ready to start anew
and he's ready to trust me
as long as i stop talking to you
because he knows as well as i
that without hesitation
i'd run back to you.
so i'm going to do it for him.
and maybe just maybe
he can rebuild my twice broken heart
i came to a realization
i love too easily and too much
so i love to write.
and express how i feel.