well 2 day was ok i did nothing all mornign which was nice i like having my mornings 2 my self than me and bucky went 2 marissa's soccer game than i went 2 quior than youth groop. i was really mad that eddie dident go 2 youth groop i wanted 2 c him i kinda expected him 2 b there he like never misses and this is his seckond week not going o well i missed him. ;`( i dont think marisa knows it but she really hurt me 2 day at youth groop she belives somthing about me that im pritty shure she knows isent true and she said that kyleen toled her and just a week ago she was crying because she thought people would belive that same stuff about her i dont understand how she can do that and still feel ok about her self. i have so0o0o much freaking homework 2 do 2 night and i have no clue how 2 do it im freally feakin out. u know thoes depressing days that all u want 2 do is somthing horrable well i feel like that right now but what i want 2 do would hurt people i care about very much and im willing 2 do that and im not willing 2 lie about it eather. im really upset about so many things in my life that i cant always sit here and think about it w/ out crying i guess i need a really close friend 2 talk 2 but im grounded from the phone again so i cant i porbly would talk 2 eddie but i dont know mabie i should keep 2 my self right now i used 2 keep a diary about things that i couldent tell people but that never works out somone always ends up reading it. well i think thats all 4 2 night. i miss bucky