well jen i love u... u r the best ill never let u get lost in the crowed again...and!!! thanks 4 getting the taco sauce!!!!!!! ok well hers the dilleO im pissed i have 2 swim till 6 2 marrow night!! i mean 6 i get out of the water that means ill get home at 7 and wont go any where till like 8 that pisses me off... weekend is comming up :) so exciting!!! nothing fun planned yet but ill get plans. friday dont know i might end up doing somthing w/ the awsome h2o polo girls. ill get somthing set up!! saturday i have some babysitting thing at the church and becides that NO PLANS!!! (ya im a loser) sunday Disney land but just 4 a tid bet after church cuz i need 2 get somthing than nothing than choir than youth groop... ok all of the suddon i feel like life is hard and i just need a step out like a break or somthing fun like that... i dont get some things i know i shouldent care but and this makes me seem like the bitch but what ever.... i saw my homecomming picture on my tv stand thing and i was thinking how fucking sad it was that so many promises were broken when i havent don a thing. that somone that used 2 make me feel happy about myself can say such harsh things (I HATE HER) eh i jsut dont get how the hell im the bad person eather!! i dont even care about a friendship but i want all the empty promises out of my head i want 2 forget everything!!! becides that heart renching mess... i have found the hottiest guy at the school!! now its getting 2 know him!! and getting close 2 this man... next week me and my friends decided it was the look hot week so im gonna do hair and makeup u knwo the hole shabang of shit and mabie get the confedince 2 go up and talk 2 the hot guy (i dont even know his name) but yes ill get his name and he'll get my number!!! and he'll call me!!! yes that my gole 4 next week (somthing 2 look forward 2)!!! well its shower time i could probly wright more but im a lil lazy c ya!! +++++ (next morning) ok this is lucky i was looking forward 2 haveing a fun weekend and i woke up really sick this morning! and i think i have another lung problem i get one every year. and now no fun weekend at all im pissed like really really pissed!!!! sence im stuck at home i think all of u should call me and tell me 2 feel better that would make me happy!!! (974-0216)