Okay so today is an alright day More on the sucky side but I can deal with that. I'm listening to chris brown. its making me really think about things. Like boys and sheeeit. it's kinda not making my day any better cause its saying how guys would be lucky to have this one girl and I don't have a guy to think that about me... I like this guy. But he has his tendancies where he just idkk. He makes me wanna strangle him sometimes.. like today. But I realize I wouldn't be who i am today without him cause hes really a big part of my life. And he's made me a stonger person emotionally atleast haha. He told me today he didn't like anybody, which kinda made me feel like CRAP cause like... idk he was the only guy that I thought REALLY liked me and didn't just want in my pants.. and then I find out he doesn't like me..So it kinda was a crash to my self esteem. which is low enough as it is. Thats one thing about me. I let what boys say about me get to me. And I tend to take things to serious... Idkkk lets add it to the list of things wrong with me it can be number: 2135235252524525 =]