all i really wanted

Listening to: far - mother mary
Feeling: wistful
Easter is good. Easter means chocolate. Chocolate is good. The boyfriend got only one chocolate bunny for me, can you believe it? What does he take me for? I´m not a girl for a single bunny. I really should go and look for another guy. Someone who´s not as stingy when it comes to chocolate. Someone who doesn´t borrow my dictionary, then hides it away and leaves me lost for words. Whatever. El Stupido didn´t find all the stuff I hid for him, so I´m wandering round the flat picking up bits of chocolatey bliss here and there. Fantastic. Most fantastic: I don´t even remember myself where I put what. This will keep my happy for days. Ahhhhh..... Pink hurts my eyes. I need a new background. Bad. I really should go and sleep now the background-crisis is dealt with. Except I don´t want to. What the hell is wrong with me? I can sleep 24-7 except when it´s 1.00 am and I have to work tomorrow. Stupid daylight savings time. Ahhhh!!!!!!!! Those google ads are the funniest thing ever!!!!! I typed "boyfriend" once and now it says: Alleinstehende Männer suchen dich! (Single men are looking for you!) Grand. what insomnia does to you [ x ] Spell your first name backwards: detarrevo [ x ] The story behind your user name?: i was watching mtv in the background and this video by siobhan whatever came on, named "overrated", and I thought, yes, that pretty much sums up my life [ x ] Are you a lesbian: I don´t think so. I suppose I would have noticed. [ x ] Where do you live: germany [ x ] 5 words that sum you up: five? five????? I never even knew what to answer on the 3-word-thingy. [ x ] Wallet: brownish imitation leather with flowers stuff [ x ] Hairbrush: several [ x ] Toothbrush: blue [ x ] Jewelry worn daily: watch, if that counts, and my lucky pendant [ x ] Pillow covers: right now greenishly checkered [ x ] Sunglasses: none at all, no sun, no need for sunglasses [ x ] Underwear: today white, work requires white shirts [ x ] CD in stereo right now: jimmy eat world, how pathetic [ x ] Tattoos: none, I wanted one really bad some time ago, but now I´m glad I never got around to actually get one [ x ] Piercings: ears and lower lip [ x ] What you are wearing now: Jeans, black t-shirt, red hoody, it´s getting cold in here [ x ] Hair: coloured today, sadly enough doesn´t look much different from before, blondish/reddish about shoulder-length WHO or WHAT (was/is/are) [ x ] In my mouth: piece of blotting paper, or something very similar [ x ] In my head: lots of room [ x ] Wishing: I could finally go to sleep [ x ] After this: sleeping, hopefully [ x ] Talking to: right now, nobody, it´s half past two in the morning, they´re all asleep [ x ] Eating: nothing [ x ] Person you wish you could see right now: anyone, really, being awake in the middle of the night is a pretty lonely business [ x ] Is next to you: bottle of wine (ouch) [ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month: spring and defrosting [ x ] The last thing you ate: apple (good girl) [ x ] Something that you are deathly afraid of: heights, honestly, put me on a ladder and I´ll go ballistic [ x ] Do you like candles: yep [ x ] Do you like hot wax: don´t even think about it [ x ] Do you like incense: sometimes [ x ] Do you like the taste of blood: sort of [ x ] Do you believe in love: not so sure, I would like to though [ x ] Do you believe in soul mates: see above [ x ] Do you believe in love at first sight: and again [ x ] Do you believe in forgiveness: yep [ x ] Do you believe in God: I´m still pondering over that one [ x ] What do you want done with your body when you die: couldn´t care less [ x ] Who is your worst enemy: probably myself [ x ] If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be: sheep [ x ] What is the latest you've ever stayed up: forever and ever [ x ] Ever been to Belgium: yes [ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks: I love to [ x ] What's your favorite coin: anything big and heavy [ x ] What are some of your favorite candy: all of them, if there´s chocolate involved, I´ll have it [ x ] What's something that you wish people would understand: each other [ x ] What's something you wish you could understand better: myself [ x ] What's one thing you want to make happen for tomorrow: see a certain guy, and, well, just the usual stuff, really [ x ] What does your last name mean: that my ancestors have come from the west [ x ] How old are you: on a good day: 21, on a bad day: 70, or 10 [ x ] What are your worst qualities: lots, I lie, I steal, I´ll let you down anytime [ x ] What are your best qualities: I´ll try my best [ x ] How long does it take you to get ready in the morning: about 10 minutes, plus another 60 for caffeine intake ~SLEEP~ [ x ] Do you dream at night: yes, lots, and the weirdest things [ x ] Do you remember your dreams: yes [ x ] What time do you go to bed usually: depends, anything is possible [ x ] What time do you wake up normally: around 10 am, no matter when I went to bed, I have no idea why [ x ] Do you sleep with one pillow or two: one ~SCHOOL~ [ x ] Do you like school: I took it as a necessary evil, but now I think it wasn´t that bad, I wouldn´t want to go back though [ x ] Whats ur fave subject: languages [ x ] Most hated subject: philosophy, only because of the worst teacher in the world [ x ] Do you have a fave teacher: hmmm, sort of [ x ] Are you a maths/science person or an english/drama person: more on the english/drama side ~FAMILY~ [ x ] Do you like your parents: most of the time, you get used to them after a while [ x ] Ever run away from home: yep [ x ] Ever thought about it: obviously [ x ] Do you have any siblings: no [ x ] Do you feel your parents spoil you: yes, absolutely [ x ] Do you have big family get togethers ever: usually I manage to skip them ~RELATIONSHIPS~ [ x ] Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: yes [ x ] If so, are you in love with them: oh my god the dreaded question, please please please make it go away!!!!! [ x ] Do they love you: he says so, but we all know talk is cheap [ x ] How long have you been together: 3 years [ x ] Most romantic thing they've ever done for you: wait, there must have been something... ~Religion~ [ x ] Do you have a religion: yes [ x ] Do you practice it: no [ x ] Do you believe in God: I think we´ve had that one already [ x ] Jesus?: nice guy, I suppose [ x ] Satan?: why not? [ x ] Heaven?: right above our heads [ x ] Hell?: I don´t think so [ x ] If you died tomorrow what do you beleive will happen to you?: with my luck, I´d probably be reborn [ x ] Does death scare you?: yes, doesn´t it scare everybody? ~Morals~ [ x ] Have you ever been drunk?: over and over again [ x ] Taken drugs?: yes [ x ] Stolen?: my personal favourite [ x ] Shoplifted?: yes, but I haven´t in a pretty long time [ x ] Tried to commit suicide?: no, if I ever get there I want to get it right the first time [ x ] Lied to a boyfriend or girlfriend?: yes [ x ] Gotten into a fight?: yes, but I never hurt anyone seriously [ x ] Are you more innocent or guilty?: compared to what? [ x ] Would you date a drug addict?: why not? I have before, it can be quite entertaining if you don´t get too involved [ x ] Have you ever had to look after someone who was a drug addict?: no [ x ] Are you racist?: no [ x ] Are you discriminatory to anyone?:yes, stupid people [ x ] Have you been a hypocrite in the past?: I think so [ x ] Do you have an open or closed mind to other peoples beliefs and feelings?: wide wide open ~Media~ [ x ] Do you watch tons of tv?: no, except some days when I just can´t make myself get off the couch [ x ] How many times have you been to the movies in the past 6 months?: countless [ x ] Do you listen to the radio often?: yep [ x ] Do you read the newspaper? : not enough [ x ] Do you read magazines?: yes [ x ] Are you a couch potato?: sort of, sometimes, I don´t like myself that way though [ x ] Do you use the internet too much?: erm... I´m here, any more questions? ~Music~ [ x ] Whats your fave style of music?: I suppose I´m a bit on the indie side [ x ] Do you play an instrument?: guitar, bit of piano, bit of drums [ x ] Do you sing?: yes, who doesn´t? [ x ] Whats your fave band?: today: bloc party, forever and ever: manic street preachers
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only one chocolate bunny? what's wrong with him. everyone knows girls LOVE chocolate. one will just not be enough, lol. well anyways, have a swell day.
lol i didn't get chocolate this year, just DVDs and stuff like that. sorry, lol.
i like your diary its very lucky! :)

x0-lauren-0x
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lol. of course i dont mind if you take my quiz i stole it form someone else so knock yourself out (not literally)

x0-lauren-0x
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my sister's on foreign exchange in germany right now. we miss her..
[Anonymous]
Glad you're back.

Dreams like that are definitely not enjoyable. Luckily, they don't occur all that often.

And now if you'll excuse me, I have lots of chocolate to eat. Happy Easter and such.

♥ Jenna
[Anonymous]