hmm.. Why cant things just work out for me for once? Why cant i ever have what i want? just once... just once and ill be satisfied. What do i want? a relationship with someone i love..but that will never happen I like 2 people...one is 23 and completely leading me on, and another is a fucking drug lord. I cant win. My mind says to stop loving him but my heart wont listen My head says "who cares", and my heart screams "i do" Im a lost cause