My dad woke me up to confiscate his laptop so he could go to my grandfather's. He is out of the hospital, so naturally my dad is going to spend the day with him, while working. I saw Alice yesterday. It was fun. Then I went to Maria's and spent some time with her, it was nice. We very rarely just stay in and hang out but still I didn't bring up what I need to know. The fact remains that I can't pressure her. It still kills me to know that she would have gotten back together with me to simply make me forget about the Andrew kid. Shit, man, I can't even think about these situations without an agonizing sense of hurt. Then I went to the Japanese steakhouse with my family and ran into John and his new girlfriend Isabelle. She seems nice, but I felt a little awkward, and maybe a little jealous, because he had no trouble moving on when he told me that he cared incredibly much for me and BLAH BLAH BLAH. But the world is not about me and that is something I forget on occasion. Well, at that moment. Anyways, I need a five or somehting, all this stuff just blows my mind. I need to blow it all by myself. I talked to jen! I miss her incredibly much. I'm so happy she's coming back, even if it's only monday. Wow... I'm off. I sound so emo and preppy in this entry. Fuck ME.