well the last day of skool waz on friday an it kinda sucked cuz i had a spanish exam..but it waz pretty eazi so yea.after tht there waz a lot of hugging ,crying,and picture taking..ima miss every1. i kinda wish skool wasnt ovr cuz im not exactly looking forward 2 all this extra family quality time.*sigh*..i wudnt b surprised if they jus drove me ryte over the edge 2 the point where i do sumthin...crazi.. speakin of crazi...i think iv been goin in an outta depression or sumthin...iv been havin a lot of suicidal thoughts an such..sumtimes i feel worthless,liek im letting every1 down an screwing up every1s lives..liek i dont even kno wat the point of me being here iz...i feel liek god is punishing me by keeping me alive... I SHOULD HAVE BEEN THE ONE HIT BY THE CAR NOT LUCKY!somehow i think everyone would b less sad an more relieved if tht were the case.... yea...mayb i do need a phyciatrist or w/e..but do i really want 2 reveal mi most intament thoughts 2 a complete staranger? plus theyr more thn likely 2 tell mi parents... these quince pratices r not helping i hav 2 b at one EVERY FREAKIN WEEKEND!well at least ill b wit cris..thts good..but now mi parents r getting pissed cuz they cant do ne thing on the weekends now..not exactly mi fault...or iz it? well now i gtg wash the freakin dishes now PEACE & LOVE