wow life has taken a turn 4 da worse..mai dad had a heart attack late friday nite and is currently in the hospital,mai grandmas sick...an since mai dads not workin i think now we're gonna hav money problems... i cant beleive a few months ago i wanted a sweet 16 party..i mean i jus had a quince an all...now tht i look back on it iv realized tht i was pretty selfish..i dont want one anymore all i want is 4 noone 2 die an 4 everyone 2 get better.....i also hope tht we find mai padrino...this iz wat i basiczlly pray 4 very nite....plus tht i do well in skool *sigh* i feel liek im growin up so fast..i never realli had much of a normal child hood i guess after liek age 10....its liek now...im an adult or sumthin cuz i try 2 help out an sumtimes it seems liek wat i do is never enuf...i cook,i clean,help out mai sisters....but i wonder....iz it all enuf,wat more can i do 2 not c those tired faces on mai parents....while tryin 2 meet theyr expectations..especially in skool im tryin 2 keep mai grades up an get involved...i wana stay after skool cuz i dont wana b home an i need after skool activities but i cant help but feel guilty about how i should b at home..... i never imagined tht the things i thought cud make me happy make me feel worse about maiself...im givin up on mike cuz well i guess we're jus 2 different,an i never get 2 talk 2 hima n whn i do it seems liek he doesnt....w/e fuck him im better off w/o him.....i thought tht one dai meant sumthin 2 him guess not....estupid preps.... Newais i am hopin i find a date 4 homecoming cuz i realli want 2 go sinc ei didnt last year..i was thinkin mike but yea..not so much......if i dont find a hot date ill jus got wit ash,cuz she needs wun 2 on the briteside this cute white boi in mai p.e class thinks im hot!:) tht makes me kinda excited cuz iv never had a guy straight out say tht 2 me(tht i wasnt goin out wit)..i think its cool so yea we'll c where things go from here <3Peace & Love<3