It's getting to the stage where heartbreak is turning in to 'yeah i'm really pissed off'. It hard not to think about something you so constantly thought about. But, Sarah says this is all good because now I can go and live with her. And her and I can do girl stuff together. Like do each other's hair and tell each other how fat we look in tight pants. And she can help me find a nice date and then wait up for me so we can talk about it after. And I can help her with all her stuff too. I really wish I had someone like that over here. Also last night I saw Pirates of the Carribean. Orlando Bloom is magnificent, in the sense that he is extrememly good looking :) So is Johnny Depp, even though he is old. But I like old men. that took my mind off this whole thing for a minute. anyway, im still pissed off. not angry though - yet. i will be soon, im sure. i just need to excercise or something. --------- i just fell down the fucking stairs