well, i see that nobody really updates this stuff anymore. it's not like it used to be, that's for sure. and by that, i mean a lot of stuff isn't like it used to be. some of it makes me really mad and angry, or sad and a little heart-broken, or even happy. but i know i can't just write it all here and expect anything to happen or change. i must just confront the person making me feel either happy, sad, or mad, etc. whatev.