Well, today gave me a better understanding of having difficult choices to deal with. One moment, I may be so wrapped up in this feeling of pure joy with one person, then the next time, with the other person, I feel this same astonishing.. ( I can't call it love, as it's too soon to be that )... feeling. A feeling that who I am is this incredibly beautiful person, like I'm the only girl in the state. I feel as though SOMETHING in this world separates me from other people, something about me is uniquely wonderful enough to allow someone to feel a desire to be with me, around me, close to me. But, this brings me to one of the biggest dilemmas of my life. A choice. How can I choose one over the other? They are both so wonderful, each with their different great things. Yes, I'd love to be able to just easily pick, and know that I've made the right choice.. but I can't. I can't live with the what ifs. What if I hadn't made that choice, what would be different? What if my life were dramatically changed because I made the "wrong" choice? It's one of those decisions that is just too hard to make. Which I know is not just hurting me, but the people involved too. But, until something happens to dramatically sway me in one way or the other, I just can't see making a choice. I just am so much hoping that I don't do something to completely jeopardize the situation. Something that could potentially ruin it all for me, and them. I just don't want to hurt anybody.