But you changed me.

Listening to: Ponytail Parades
Feeling: crushed
Three sleepless nights, this isn't how it's supposed to be... but you're so good at taking your time to get back to me. I would wait for you . F O R E V E R . if you would just ask me. I thought that I could change you....
but you changed me.
It doesn't feel right holding someone else's hand. Together on phone lines, living at two opposite ends...
It scares me to think that you could find takers other than me... and better than me.
But your head is elsewhere and I'm talking enough for both of us. When will you see... it's not that easy for me? Your careless, and whisper... insulting and bruising. And I thought that you said that things were improving. I fall from your eyes... your eyes I trusted. These laces are untied but my feet are still walking away. I never thought that you could say these words, is this really happening? Don't say we can still be friends.
ERASE MY NAME FROM THIS PAGE.
How can you take all these days and throw them away as I sit here waiting for you? I stay up nights until stars leave the sky knowing what my dreams can take away. What is inside me? What have I done? Is this the only way that you'll know me? Dead words for closed ears, all this is sung for you. If you're still pretending this is what's right... why can't you look at me? Can your only see sides...your side? Walk away from me. This night is done. That's how I feel. -Hannah
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really deep I like your diary =) how did you get pictures over your entries?
[Anonymous]
I'm surprised the girl that left the comment before me read what was written. Sometimes I think people read only a few lines of a diary and decide that something is either really deep or really stupid/pointless. But, whatever.
I know I haven't ruined myself, but for who I thought and wanted to be..well thats another story. I've corrupted my imagery of myself, so now I can't have an image, I have to have the LIFE to fulfill my destiny myself.