kiss my bleeeeep
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ah im sick
and i got a 92 on my math quiz. yay..probly my first A right??
so on sunday i slept at emilys house, then on the way to DQ we picked up lauren so it was us 3 like always. and we just hung around basically. then the two of them talked to their boyfriends and i played helicopter. fun right? hhah YEAh i guess???
then we stayed up until like 5 FRIKIN O CLOCk watching the notebook . .
and then uhm, at 5 we went to conners. emily did well, take a wiLd guEss... i played poker with patrick and eric. while lauren did all her MAD card triCks.
then i came home and got online and talked to emily/lauren about weight problems and all that self esteem stuff that we were talking about while we sat in emilys room for like 5 hours. emily thinks she needs to lose as much weight as me? what the flip is she insane...someone talk some sense into that child. so strict diet for me..i mean summer...im usually looking forward to it and now im like DREADinG it.
im gonna start recording everything i eat for the whole day so i realize how much i ate lets do yesterday
sun chips/oreos at 3 in the morning
smushed sub from the waffle maker
slice of pizza
quessadilla at conners
cottage cheese and crackers at home
WOW JUST REMEMBERED MORE....all those honey roasted peanuts and wheat thins, WOW
wow thats alot..okay all i NEED to have is just a protein shake in the AM, protein bar and water at lunch, fruit when i come home, and a small dinner. god i never stick to that except the protein crap. once i get home, IM HUNGRY. i mean, im already hungry.
so ive realized, i mean you guys complain about being 'fat' but i mean..doesnt it make you feel better that at least a guy likes you? ive never had a guy like me in my life..that makes things a crap load worse
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i think my stomach might be shrinking. i mean all ive eaten today is a protein shake and a protein bar at lunch. i didnt even take like one chip of somebodys or anything. when i came home i wasnt hungry and i just went to bed instead of eat. well okay now im having vegeatble soup..but thats the last thing on the menu for the day...WOW im proud
but maybe its just cuz im sick...who knows
wanna hear what i ate yest? OK i had oatmeal, banana, whole sub, slice of pizza, peanuts, wheat thins, quesadilla, ham, mashed potatoes. that should make u feel better. considering i prolly ate even more than that.
dont worry rachael.. i woudl rather just not be liked.. then like someone and be rejected..? wait.. thats the same.. okay well im in the same boat as you
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ah im sick
and i got a 92 on my math quiz. yay..probly my first A right??
so on sunday i slept at emilys house, then on the way to DQ we picked up lauren so it was us 3 like always. and we just hung around basically. then the two of them talked to their boyfriends and i played helicopter. fun right? hhah YEAh i guess???
then we stayed up until like 5 FRIKIN O CLOCk watching the notebook 
. 
.
and then uhm, at 5 we went to conners. emily did well, take a wiLd guEss... i played poker with patrick
and eric. while lauren did all her MAD card triCks.
then i came home and got online and talked to emily/lauren about weight problems and all that self esteem stuff that we were talking about while we sat in emilys room for like 5 hours. emily thinks she needs to lose as much weight as me? what the flip is she insane...someone talk some sense into that child. so strict diet for me..i mean summer...im usually looking forward to it and now im like DREADinG it.
im gonna start recording everything i eat for the whole day so i realize how much i ate lets do yesterday
sun chips/oreos at 3 in the morning
smushed sub from the waffle maker
slice of pizza
quessadilla at conners
cottage cheese and crackers at home
WOW JUST REMEMBERED MORE....all those honey roasted peanuts and wheat thins, WOW
wow thats alot..okay all i NEED to have is just a protein shake in the AM, protein bar and water at lunch, fruit when i come home, and a small dinner. god i never stick to that except the protein crap. once i get home, IM HUNGRY. i mean, im already hungry.
so ive realized, i mean you guys complain about being 'fat' but i mean..doesnt it make you feel better that at least a guy likes you? ive never had a guy like me in my life..that makes things a crap load worse
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i think my stomach might be shrinking. i mean all ive eaten today is a protein shake and a protein bar at lunch. i didnt even take like one chip of somebodys or anything. when i came home i wasnt hungry and i just went to bed instead of eat. well okay now im having vegeatble soup..but thats the last thing on the menu for the day...WOW im proud
but maybe its just cuz im sick...who knows