started off as a good day with friends, but once family hit...started to suck. i hate how my dad trys to control me. i hate how my sister treats my mom. makes me just wanna cry...i just started crying thinking about my moms situation here...she has me who just makes her drive me everywhere like shes a taxicab, another daughter that doesnt even acknowledge to call her..and an Xhusband that still holds onto the past and tells me and mysister, and anyone he CAN, bad things about my mom. shes had cancer, everyday she goes to work after a long day and then im just on the computer.. i never help her make dinner, maybe occasionally. and today she said to me "well once you go off to college ill get a small house with just an extra room to come home to. that makes me just bawl, that she knows shes gonna be alone..i make myself feel so guilty but really..im sitting here crying when its all my fault.
so we were planning on going out to diner tonight for her sweet 16.. then we went to go pick her up and my dad comes out and is yelling at me, he called emilys mom and hes such a jerk some things he says just makes me hate him and never want to see him again. so he said some really hurtful things and i was just like well marla you dont even act like you want to go to dinner..you're just expecting presents, can you just get out of the car. so she did and i threw her bday card at her...felt really guilty so i called her about 10 minutes later and said sorry but i just wasnt in the mood for celebrating when what was being celebrated was a load of crap.
yeah so i went to the dollar movie, it was kinda weird we got there really late so me and emily had to sit in a differnt row. and then my dad makes me feel guilty too, so i go over his house to meet his girlfriend and her daughter..that was awkward..
byee
Christina