OH NO!!! I think Landen hates me. I talked to him yesterday for about two seconds and he told me that he was really upset about the email i sent him. I think he hates me! Leza, you stupid retard what did you do!?! I feel aweful! And the worst part is i don't know what to do because i am not going to tell him that I regret saying it or i didn't mean it, because i did mean it and i really know deep down inside me that it needed to be said. I just don't know what to do because he wont talk to me and that is the worst feeling in the world is when a guy won't talk to you and you really need him too. I just wish that this could have gone differently, but at the same time it was good i think (at least that is what emily is tell ing me). Wow! i am going crazy and i feel horrible and i think i most likely will untill he talks to me about what he is feeling inside. I don't care if he yells, screams, crys, or cusses my face off i just want to know what he is thinking so we can work through this. It is just another bump in our relationship that has we need to get over but i can't do it by myself! please help me! I love him so much i just get sick at the thought of me bringing pain and suffering into his life, but i don't regret the things i said to him. I love him and that is why i care so much about what he does because as I told my friend last night, he is my eternal progression and that is why this is so hard for me because i need to know things are going to work out or if he hates me and never wants to talk to me again! I am the most horrible girl ever how could i be so mean to the man i love!?! please talk to me...