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Florestant street lights and burnt out hotel signs Filled my mind with memories and my eyes with insight And I don’t know what I felt but I felt it deep inside It was a feeling that hurt and healed That made things worse, that made things right It really made no sense at all, but it was a feeling that wouldn't lie I smelled it in the wind that still sends chills screaming up my spine and in the heat of the night, it made me cold The thoughts it brought and the truths it told I watched waves crash down and my life unfold And those street lights that I’d never seen Brought back memories that just couldn’t be Things just seemed so clear and clean then and I’m breathin fine but livin sure aint easy. This one doesn't really make sense unless you read the 3 page stoned rambling bullshit I wrote on vacation. I kind of pieced together bits and pieces trying to describe that night sitting there... and this is as close as I feel like getting
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Fuck yeah I still like it...but I am an affectionate drunk, so I can't drink w/out him, but that's okay because we go to the same parties. But I smoke with guys...there's maybe one other girl that I'd smoke with, and he's afraid the one of them will "take advantage of me". I swear sometimes I just wish he didn't give a fuck. Although I know I would hate it...lol
That's really pretty. Your..."gifted" I guess if you write those on your own. (which it obviously looks like you do) I have no talents so I just sit around envying people like you. lol
Dude, you should get stoned more often & write more stuff like that. I've been following your work thru my other diary (hiddenshadows)...&& this one I really like. I know I've said that about most of your others. But it's soooo true. You've got greattt talent. I actually wish I was that talented. If you made a book, I would buy it. So, you should make a book of all your poetry...& send it to a few stores in northeastern PA.
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Peace & love
Haha your stoned when you write these? wow...I haven't smoked since like June. Yeah I won't be doing it too often anymore now that my boyfriend's gone all straight-edge. *sigh* lol
I have been pretty good. I think I may "take a break" with my boyfriend Clayton though. He's been really mean to me lately and it feels like he thinks he HAS to spend time with me. I don't know I think that he should feel like he wants to spend time with me and not like he has to. I can't even tell you how happy I am that it's Friday though. Ahhh...lol
Haven't talked to you in a while...how are you? Good I hope. Haha from your lack of updation I assume you haven't smoked in a while. lol
Oh hey...I was reading your previous entries and one of them was talking about a boy you liked and you barely even knew him. Was that the guy you talked to just a couple of days ago and realized those feelings were completely gone? lol
Yea well I love him but hey if a break is what he needs then I guess we will try that. lol My weekend is pretty good. I'm trying to hang out with my friends and keep my mind off of him. Not working. lol