so the firss day of school sucked , no surprise. ill break it down ; today; damn there was a shit load of traffic. ehh, stuck in it for a good 10 .. 15 mintues. yeah, got to school & wow, so many new faces. found my class, went to it, sat there, hella borringgg. didn`t really know anybody so yeah. went to our REAL firss period, tech 1-2. omgg that class looks gayy as hell ! only because im stuck with a shitload of freshhmens & i dont know anybody really. then my honors english class is WAYYY better. i know half the damn class & sina`s in there with me =D so yeah, we sat & talked cuz we werent aware of the summer reading so yeah. then i went to my AP Biology class. wow. im scared of that class. ha. its hard. or it looks hellaaaa hard. im not supposed to be in there cuz i flunked 2nd semester of chemistry, so ima get that fixed. then i got gay ass late lunch with NOBODY there. omggg. nobody fun at leastt. yeah im switching the early lunch fuck that shit. & yeah. then dance, got some annoying ass immature people. but daisys in there so its okayy. and yeahh. came home. blah blah blah. i better get my fucken period man. i have no "period on the way" symptons either. omgg. grrr. fuck shit crap. ima kill somebody. im donee.

i need a pregnancy test. NOW. this can`t wait any longer.

so yeah, im feeling annoyed at the moment cuz .. someone. eh, i don`t know why actually now that i think about it. he`s just being mean in his ways that he doesn`t see & if i were to point them out to him he wouldn`t see it the way i do so fuck it. but yeah, im hungry. i`ve been hungry all day actually i dont know why. i do eat but then like .. an hour or two after i`ll be starving as if i didnt eat all day. weirdd. i hope im not. but yeah, ehh, he just hung up with me. err, damn it. im sleepy too though but for some reason i dont want to go to sleep right now. this aint getting no where ... ima stop. peace easy beezie.

i hope im not. seriously, im kinda scared now. mann. this sucks. gotta stop stressin tho. ehh. ima cry =(

so yeah, i woke up today feeling shity. i woke up at like .. 9 and i was tired as hell but i couldn't go back to sleep so fuck it. i woke up, showered, etc. talked to rosanna,talked to sonny, talked to sina. got ready, sina came, then rosanna&sonny came to my house. got starbucks♥ then we left to orientation. yeah, it was hot. boring. annoying. wateverr. i was happy to be holding sonny`s hand the whole time =D hehehe. yeah, from the corner of my eye i can see guys just ..glancing at me. they didnt really think sonny exsisted since they never seen me with a "boyfriend". ha. be jealous. =] let it be known even to guys i dont know yet that im TAKEN & happy. but yeah, we stayed there, got my ID and left. it ended to soon. i didnt wanna go, actually i did but i wanted to stay with sonny but he had to go to delta =( mannn. left 2 hours earlier than i was supposed to. oh well. i feel soo lonley right now. its like, seeing sonny today was a BIG ASS TEASE cause it ended too soon. maybe tomorrow ? god i HOPE my brother stayed at chico for the weekend or something. man i wanna talk to sonny !! & im hungry now. all i ate today was a peach & starbucks - literally. mcdonalds sound good right now =] but i want my sonny . ..

im soooo fucken hungry. omg. its makin me SAD. ha. wow. i want mcdonalds soooo bad. i want some starbucks. i want BROWNIES ! arghh. fuck man im hella broke or else id go get some myself. hahaha. oh fuckin wow im actually SAD cuz i want food. but yeah, im not smiling right now. i have a headache cuz my tummys talkin to me. nuthing to eat in this damn house. eh but yeah. & then sonnys not picking up his phone and its making me even more freakin sad cuz im all lonely over here mann. & then im trippin off of something ELSE and its like .. wow. i dont knoee. i need caffeine, grease .. SOMETHING. jsfdlkjsdrtujhslidjglkdsfg. but yeah, i got to see my sonny today =] kinda short notice thing though but its okayy. yeah, shit happens & today i just happen to be alone in mi casa . might as well take advantage of it. so yeah, i went to his house & played. thats it. ha. anywayss. then i went home, ate some nasty ass food that i didnt really even eat, then i went to the gayass mall & got my all white DUNKS finally. and i wanted to leave cuz i wanted to talk to sonny but no0o0o. he aint pickin up. grrr. fuck shit crap. iono why im hella moody right now. everythings just .. bugging me. i dont even wanna write no more ...

she lays in her dark room, each tear is another word left unsaid. she doesn't cry out loud but listens to the same song over and over again asking herself why and hating herself all together. each second turns to minutes, the minutes turn to hours and the hours feel like years. still-no call. she dreads when night comes around for things just arent the same anymore. used to be something to look foward to but now wishes she can avoid it all together. she cries in silence and prays for comfort. hopes for a miracle to put her out of her misery. her makeup runs, the dears dont stop and reminds herself as the same song plays over and over again that she will never be good enough ...

never realized how hard it is to come up with an entry title. anywayss. i forgot what it feels like to have a sitdiary. i forgot what kind of shit i`d talk about. oh well, i want mcdonalds though =] like reallyyy bad. i hope i get my period this month, ha. & i dont want to go back to school. i don`t get how im in AP Biology when i failed the 2nd semester of chemistry ? ehh. i was kinda looking foward to taking chemistry again just because i knew i was gonna be feelin` super smart in that class. hehehehe. it doesn`t make sence how im in Honors english when i didn`t get any summer reading? wtf. wow, that`d be a bitch if there was & i never got mail telling me about it. maybe its just for AP classes ? i don`t know. dance 1-2. great. im gonna be stuck in a class with a shitload of freshmans. better than taking PE & im soooo happy that i got dance LAST. THANK GOD. no math this semester, no history either. no spanish .. hm. yeah i noticed they have my OLD phone number from my OLD house. that explains why the school never called me saying that we`re gonna start school at 7:16. hmm. im not changing it to my new number =] keep it like that. hehehe. anyways, im waiting for sonny to call me back. its been an hour. eh, anyday now .. but yeah. im done. peace easy beezie =]

& yeah. haven`t been on this site for a while. myspace is getting .. ehh.. boring. yeah, i wouldn`t dare write a "blog" on myspace. it`s too .. out there. this site, on the other hand, is not that popular you can say & i like that. but yeah, shits been up. same `ol. somethings never change & others are just too good to be true. i love my boyfriend, i really do.

so yeah, deleted all my old entries. & yes, im starting over. eh, damn it, i forgot how to make layouts for this site, so used to myspace. shit. bear with me, its gonna be ugly for a whilee. ha.