1st adrian left, i regret ever crying over that selfish asshole then jessie left which ended up being pointless cuz she visited so many times and is now back now not only do i have to deal with clara leaving eventually but now i hear elier is moving at the end of school too this isnt fucking fair i care soo much about everyone i kno, too god damn much its practicly a fucking curse and i dont wanna fall apart again ...in 2 different ways im lucky to have become closer to my newer friends... most of the preps arent worth the shit on my shoe, well i havent actually ever stepped in shit in my latest pair of sneakers but thats not the point im still feelin distant to leah and bri in days of late, preston is barely even someone i can call a friend anymore, and now elier the closest person from that group is leaving then of course clara... what the fuck am i spose to do ive been singing all day... i feel like im startin to get some of my confidence back i really think that when im singin privately i could take shane and marc... but too fucking bad i cant seem to ever muster myself up when anyones actually listening i wouldnt be surprised if i dont get a solo in the next concert... i just wish i could keep it together when im auditioning, but no i start fucking shaking uncontrolably fuck man... hate when i start thinkning this much never really leads me anywhere thats good...