Haha this song is so good. Well, I'm actually at school right now and I'm surprised this site even works here because they just recently blocked practically everything on the Internet. Even when I actually need to do school work, I can't get it. They even closed down Goggle image! Grrr. And I usually listen to Launch all the time, bur now that’s gone, So my iPod is going to get some good use. Things are actually pretty crazy right now. I got the job at Petland and I have been working there for a little over a month. I really like the people there. There’s this one guy named Adam and he always makes me like pee my pants. Lol, he’s so funny. All the puppies are really cute…well actually not all of them. Haha. One thing I just don’t like is how we have a sales goal that we should reach each shift. It’s kind of hard, and I just hate going up to people and encourage them into buying something, because I hate it when people do that to me. But I’m not totally sick of it. There’s just days I don’t want to work. Chad works at DQ again and that’s in the same mini-mall so he drops a moo-late off every once-in-a-while. I really like that. I love seeing him. J Soccer is up and running. I’ve got on a team I really like. Celtic Lightning. I didn’t want a huge commitment because I need to concentrate on school and work as well. And it’s pretty good timing. June is really hectic though. And that sucks because my exams are in June. June 15th and 16th. I’m glad their at the beginning. Just get it over with! So we have one all of our games so far. All of our 1 games. Haha. Well, and an exhibition game where we played Ice and won 6-2 I think it was. Maybe they had 3. Whatever. Grey’s Anatomy….Oh my god. I could not believe that Denny died. Could not believe it. And Izzy! Ooooh Izzy. I thought he was going to live! That’s such a good show. Cried 3 times during the Finale. And who will she chooosee?! I would choose the Vet Daddy just got back from Ottawa. He went on a fishing trip with some friends, which I was really happy about because he hasn’t seen them in a long time. I was mostly happy that he would be staying with Gramma and Grandpa. After this last heart attack, they have been pretty scared. I just want to see them. I want to go out there and just be with them both. Grandpa’s all weird and not really talking to Gramma and I just miss them both so much…and I’m worried about my mom, because she misses them. and I think everyone in my family is kind of worried and aren’t saying anything. Sometime, I think I might talk to mom about it. I kind of already did. I told her we need to go back out there for a little while and she said she knows and really wants to because they need us, but we don’t have the money. Fucking money. All of our money is in savings for DR. Lol. I’m so excited for the summer. Dominican Republic is going to be amazing. I already got my shots. I think I have to go back for another shot a couple months after we get back. I’m so excited to swim with dolphins and go horseback riding and scuba diving and ahhh! We’ve already booked the dolphin swim at Ocean World. I’m also so excited for the Calgary stuff. Bridge jumping! (possibly) and rafting with the ladies. And River swimming and partiessss. And tans! Lol. The weather has been so gorgeous lately, like 29s! Sooo Nice. And I hope it stays like that for the remainder of the summer. I mean I even wore a dress to school! A little summer dress! Yaay. Anyway, not much else is new. I just want school to be over and the real summer to start! *Katie

Wow Baksetball is over, which I really don't want to explain everything because typing it out would take forever. Everyone who needs to know how I feel about it being over knows, so thats the important thing. Soccer is starting up. I had my first evaluations on Monday and got asked to go to another evaluation on Friday (which was yesterday) So I went and I played and it was fun. Then I got asked to stay again after that one... so I had to stay for another hour. lol actually those hours go by really fast. I guess its because you just want to give it your all on every shift. I thought I did really bad the second tryout last night. I was playing with Chesley and Dino and Kayla and they are all really good. I don't know if I want to play up though. I mean pretty much the whole reason I wanted to play was to be on Bailey's team. We have played soccer for so many years and never got the chance to be on the team together. So I don't know. I don't want to be playing it more then 3 times a week so we'll just see what happens. Chad's at this new dog place in calgary where there is supposed to be like a swimming pool and you and your dog are both aloud in it. lol I don't know how that would work. Especially with dogs that shed. lol. The would probably have to clean it every hour! Anyways thats where he is now. I am going to work on my resume for applying at pet land today. I think I'm also going to go and get some soccer shoes. Tomorrow I'm going to the zoo with Joel and Meagen. That should be funn! I love the zoo so much. All the cute animals, and I finally get to see the little baby hippo that's stay there. Splash! AWWWWWWW hehe hippos are cute Chad is cute misty is cutee! I want more pets. I actually love animals to death. I want lots of pets. Even though they are a loy of work. It would be soo fun! My parents would never let me though. lol they said misty is enough. ahhh well. Misty is the best pet i could ever ask for. *Katie

It's 11:40 now so technically when I'm done writing this entry it will be February 20th. I've been really busy lately. It's a whole new semester in school so I'm in science right now and I think I'm the only person in my class who doesn't understand it... Sometimes it really bugs me how people are so smart! I meanm you gotta wonder if people are born that way, or if they just work really hard at it and I just don't think it's fair because it feels like I work my ass off and sometimes it just doesn't get me anywhere and it's hard not to just give up. Anyways enough with school! Were on a 5 day weekend because of teachers convention and family day, but we go back to school on Tuesday..ugh! So my weekend has been fun. I went to Nanton yesterday with Stef, Mel and Jaye to meet the grandparents. They are really nice, just like the Papps. Then today me and Mom and Dad went job shopping, lol. I got an application for pet land which I really hope I can work there. But not for a little while because I have to wait until basketball season is over. But I'm thinking that I will volenteer for a while so they get to know me more, then I have a better chance of getting the job in the summer. After job shopping, me and Chad headed uo to the slopes for some boarding, lol. We brought his camera and took some footage, lol it was fun. Everyone was like "whoa sweet camera dude" Im not kidding, like 5 people. Then we got home a plugged it into the big screen which was cool. Then Grey's Anatomy was on at 8:00pm. Great show! I recomend it to anyone. It's on Sunday nights at 8:00 on CTV (channel 3) OH! I forgot to tell you that on the way home from boarding Mom and Dad took me and Chad out for dinner to Harvey's. It was really good. After greys anatomy, Me, Jenn, Dad, Mom and Chad all gathered around and played Catch Phrase which is this really addicting game that I'm sure I have mentioned in my other entries. haha. There was so much crying going around from laughing so hard. It was so much fun. I love how my family and Chad get along, Ny Dad absolutly loves him because he so used to living in a house with 4 girls (including my dog) Tomorrow I have to work on a whole bunch of homework! English, Journalism and Science. The team is getting together for some hoops tomorrow at 1:00. The bachelor- wemon tell all is on tonight! yippeeee! I will watch that at 9:00 and get to bed at 10:00 because I have a big game the next day. I'm writing my journalism article on the bachelor show. lol. Oh, there was a review in the paper on the OC and how people were saying that the show just isn't as good as it used to be and the story line is just getting old. But maybe that will change now that Johnny is finally dead! I still love the show though, I mean, it has its ups and downs and I can see how people would say it's not as good as it used to be but that doesnt stop me from loving it. Sometimes Marissa really pisses me off though, grrr...and now Steh is all into drugs and thats gross! :( Anyways! Better head off now. Talk more soon! *Katie

First of all..im not actually feeling alienated, i just studied that word in Social and i was upset that nothing on the exam today was on alienation...so i thought I'd use it for something! So yes, exams are on...I actually absolutly hate examsss! Why can't they just disapear and then you get all your marks from class work and stuff! That would be okay with me:) So socials over with for the year..well the school year, ive written both exams for that stupid subject, now i just need to get math over with. ooooh im so excited for this summer. Were going on a family vacation. OH MY GOODNESS i have never been out of Canada and i just can't wait to get out. lol well..at least for a little while. Hopefully we go..lol. Mom, Dad and I were looking at like vacation and hotel spots and i just got so excited! It's really fun looking at that kind of stuff. I want somewhere with a beach, a spa, and DOLPHINS. Yes dolphins are a must. Chad came over tonight and we were supposed to study..but that didnt happen much. lol we got involved in Catch Phrase which is this addicting game. Now im going to be addicted to that game ASWELL as the Harry Potter game. lol and the OC was on, im so happy he likes that show now:) I knew hes like it once he figured out everything that was going on. Valentines day is coming fast and I have $0. What am I going to do about that?! I'll have to think of something special for Chadly..hmm but what?? I think I'm out for the night..I have to do alot tomorrow like clean my room, clean the bathroom, go to physio, and return some snowboarding goggles I got for christmas that didn't fit which i was mad about, because they were niicceee. They just didn't fit my face..right. nighty night *Katie

Happy New Year! Last night was fun, i got to sleep with chad again which I absolutly loveeee doing. lol. Mac, Bailey, Ashley, Chad and I all crashed at Coopers house for the night. We all met at McDonalds and me and Chad saw Tom! lol we asked him what he was doing and he said just partying. lol funny Tom. Then we all went to Sobeys to get some chips and stuff and then to shell for some candy and then to coopers. We watched the hockeey games! Canada won AND Calgary won. wow :) what a great way to start the new year!! yaaay We counted down and me and chad kissed and did all that regular new years stuff. lol I love countdown kisses. We actually didnt stay up as late as i thought we would, but everyone seemed kinda tired, including me. Me and Chad were on the counch,and everyone else was on the floor. suckers. just kidding! lol actually in thew middle of the night me and chad wanted off the couch because we were so uncomfertable lol and we just kept on tossing and turning so we got up and had to find a way around everyone and it was soo hard not to laugh. lol and then we found out that there was no room on the damn floor so we had to go BACK to the couch...and ooomg lol we were laughing so hard, everyone else was asleep and me and chad were just trying so hard not to laugh and we bboth had pillows and we would just shove them in our faces everytime we looked at eachother to stop ourselves from laughing and waking everyone else up. haha, then we finally got settled back on the couch..comfertable. lol his feet were in my face and my feet were in his, and then in the morning i woke up to him just starring at me, and then i fell back asleep, and woke up again at 12:30 to him playing "this little piggy" on my toes.lol crazy boy. then he told me to waake up and he had told me like 10 other times before but i juust kept falling back asleep, so this time i was like damnitt your so cute and i actually stayed awake. haha.Then me and chad left around 2:00 and went back to my house for New Years dinner which my gramma had mad the best freaking Pork EVVVVERR. yum and then we had home made chocolate chip cake for dessert with the best icing. ooooh man. Then me and chad went down to rent a movie and we got Deuce Bigalow: European Jigalow and Eurotrip. We started watcing Deuce and only got halfway till chad had to leave. and Chads already seen Eurotrip and all he said about it was that it was funny and i asked if it has lots of......breasts...ha, and he said yeah. sooo that should be interesting to watch with him. ( I get jelous easily..its something I hate about myself..) Tomorrow were going to Zoo Lights with my grandparents and spencer too. annnd hopefully doing something with Joel and Meagen, since i havnt seen them for a while.... I was thinking today and I have eaten soooo much crap that Basketball is going to be such a bitch. ooh my god they work us so hard. i like it though because it gets you in shape but its hard work! lol if the coaches weren't so cool, id probably hate basketball now. but i <3 it!...i just need to get back in shape before the break is over. So Im going to try and get some running in with my new Ipod before it starts up again. Anyways I should probably get to bed, Its now January 2nd.. Im not nearly as bad as bailey. lol that woman stays up till 4:00am everynight! I dont know how she does it...shes magic. *Katie

Life is so pretty when you take the time to enjoy it. It's the Thanksgiving lng weekend (thank god) I havnt done much, but it's been nice. On friday I had volleyball practise after school which sucked because I kind of just wanted to go home after school. lol but it turned out to be fun. we did like 6 on 6 most of the time. After practice I took the bus home with Leanne and Mac. But i went straight to Chad's. lol good thing he was home because i really didnt feel like walking home if he wasn't. Sooo when I got there he was on ebay for a while so i played ps2. After that we watched The Ring 2..which wasnt really scary..lol and if you know me..i hate scary movies because their scary!! lol but i was fine with that. Then we just all kind of sat around and Chad's whole family came over...cousins, aunites, uncless. yep. We all went out to the silver dragon for dinner in china town which was a really nice restoraunt (and really really good!!) I had fun. We came back home and watched open water, which was also kind of stupid. Nothing really happens, the only thing that keeps you watching is wondering how or when their going to get ripped apart by sharks:) On Saturday I helped my Mom with dinner like all day. lol it was fun. It was me, mom, dad, jenn and spencer for thanksgiving dinner that night (Chad couldnt come because he was having christmas..his parents go to arizona every winter so they have it early)So dinner was very good. After that i felt so sick and i had to lie down with a cold clothe...lol I ate too much. but then i felt better after a while and I watched Harry Potter with Jenn and Spencer. Holy man I can't wait until the 4th movie comes out. I have nince chapters left in the 4th book. Woo! Ohh yes and I also went to Ikea and got meagens persent. Today I watched Bend it like Beckham, went on the computer...not much. Then I just came back from Carburn Park by myself.lol I read Harry Potter. yep. At fisrt I went my the tree where me and Chad sit sometimes but then I realized there was a huge wasp nest above my head, so I went somewhere else by the lake instead of the river. Ooooh man, it was nice. Now I'm just sitting here...I think I'm going to go sit in the kitchen and talk with my Mom and Dad..they seemed bored.lol, either that or I'll watch TV. *Katie

You know what? Sometimes I just can't help feeling left out and feeling like I'm just there to be there.

Well...Im talking on MSN talking to nobody..lol i dont really see what the point of that is, but whatever. haha. Im listening to my music, so I'm all good. I'm going school shopping with Chad and his Mom..lol Chadly wanted me to go. lol so at least I'm not sitting around in the house all day. Its such a nice day. We were supposed to be going quading today...which we ended up not going because its really hard with 3 people because chad only has one quad and one person is left sitting arounf for an hour or so..so maybe next time Caroline will want to come and it will work out better. who knows..i really wanted to go, and so did chad but hey, what can you do? I'm going school shopping on Tuesday with ym Mommy and Jenn. I think..but in the morning because i think im hopefully doing something with the girls (Meagn, Mac and Bailey) in the day time and having a sleepover with... Me, Meagen, Bailey, Mac, Chadly, Joel, Cooper, Greg, Ashton, Alex...uuh i think thats it...lol Just the group..but were not sure if it's all happening yet..i dont really know whats going on, because mac's not sure yet..actually, ugh i have no clue hmm, my parents were looking at vehicles yesterday and showed me this van that they like..i think its called...a chevrolet Uplander 2005. Its nice...but were not getting it for like a year lol, not until my daddy gets his pension...which is in like 10 months or something..haha were selling both our vehicles now (the van and the car) and hopefully getting a jeep and another van FUN! yep..but Chad is going to be here in likee...umm 10 minutes or so, so i better go. *Katie

Well...Mom comes home tonight from Ottawa. She has been on the plane for about an hour so far and should arrive here at the airport in about 3 or 4 hours. I excited to see her. I miss her. I just talked to my Dad on the phone and everyone is doing okay back home.He's staying there for another week. I miss everyone there so much... Speedo, Poo and Sharky died.(My Fish) lol... WoW..anyways, i guess you really need a filtered tank to keep fish living longer then a week. Were not going to get anymore I dont think because we dont want to just get some knowing that they wont last long..its kind of cruel. so were thinking of getting a BIRD! YAAAY! lol last time I had a birdy i loved it (It was a dove) Then only thing is Misty didn't like it. lol but were not sure yet. But oi think it would be cool and they are more cuddly then fishies..lol Everyone is at the river today...I didn't know anyhting about this until I read all the comments on nex..lol i dont know... I slept in until like 2:00 today and then Chad came to the house and woke me up. lol We laid in bed until about 3:00..and then got out and had some breakfast and played some Diddy Kong Racing. Then we took out dogs for a walk (Sammy has been coming over alot latley and we think that Misty and her are becoming good friends...even though Sammy still grouls everytime Misty moves) Chad is at work..well he should be here in like 2 minutes, but knowing chad, he probably won't be:) haha Now I am just sitting here talking to Devan and Kyle on MSNand blasting music...thats what makes me feel better. Exspecially when I'm feeling used, or pissed off or just when im happy and feel like blasting music..lol. But I should go and start cleaning the house for Mom so she feels back at home when she gets here. RIP Jeannie I will always miss you. *Katie

Jeannie died...

Hmmm I really miss Ontario...I miss my grandparents, and Quinn, and all my Auntie's and Uncles I havn't seen them in like 5 years. I miss swimming like everyday in a fresh water lake or in a really fun swimming pool in the backyard with just family. I miss skinny dipping in Norway Bay with Quinn, lmao good times. and I miss running away from the funeral party because we couldn't take it anymore and going to the swing set and talking about everything. I miss coming home and feeling misfit because of this beautiful tan. haha, I miss going to the farm with Tammy and milking cows, and having little baby cows suck on your finger. lol. Man...oooh my god and Colanades Pizza. Best pizza ever. Well it's been fun these past days. I've been to the river swimming with chad, greg, asthon, mac and bailey. I was thinking of jumping off the bridge but over the railing and hanging on for dear life was as far as I got. I wish I could do it with out being scared, but being scared just makes it all the more fun when you finally do it. I went to The Dukes of Hazzard last night with Chadly downtown. I was supposed to go to Batman Begins with Bailey and Mac, or so I thought was what we talked about, lol but I guess they ended up going another time. oooh well ill rent it sometime. Anyways! The Dukes of Hazzard was soooo hilarious, I'm thinking of buying it. lol well, when I can. haha Jonny Knoxville and Sean William Scott are sooo funny together. haha. I went shoe shopping with Mom and Dad today. Actually more then shoe shopping. We went to get more fish because our last one, Finnigan, died. but when we went to the store they had none in the tank so we thought they all died. haha:( but yeah I got black All Star shoes and pink sandals. My Sandals are the kind that everybody had in like grade 6 or 7.lol but I guess that means hardly anybody will be wearing them now so thats cool. haha and we got umm some bleach, and some dirt, and peanuts..umm conditioner, hairspray...yah think thats about it. Chad's at work today...he should be off soon though so I'm probably going to do something with him laaaater onnn.... Newlyweds is on in about 15 minutes and I still have to e-mail my Grandparents about my super bad sunburn on my back. ouch! *DID YOU KNOW???* it only takes one stupid sunburn to have a chance to develope skin cancer. Anything causes cancer these days... *Katie

I HATE CANCER...God damnit.. Aggh...I hate how at first i didnt feel anything really, and now i look at myself and see why the fuck didn't i feel anything. I just read an entry of my sisters about cancer too and hers is something related to mine. Well my Auntie Jeannie (she's not really my auntie, shes my moms godmother and my grandma best friend) was given 6 months to live in May. I heard my mom talking on the phone with her the other day and Jeannie is doing horrible. She can't breathe properly, she has no energy...and i hate it when other people get upset and when I saw my mom get upset after hanging up with her...I started thinking of it and then now my sister's upset and i hate that too and now i just can't handle thinking of it without having a lump in my throat from holding back the tears. She has cancer of the bladder, cancer of the colon, cancer of the lungs and cancer of the stomach. Also...its spreading. I hate how when you find something bad out that you start feeling so many regrets. I wish i talked to her more often. I always heard that she wanted to hear from us,and she always asked about us to my grandma. And i just feel like I didn't do one fucking thing. sure I talked to her when we go out a visit, when was the last time we did that..4 years ago? Even though i don't think I culd handle talking to Jeannie on the phone, after seeing my moms face from hanging up..i dont have the strength. So I guess my sister was telling my how my mom and dad were thinking of taking us all back to ontario for about 1 week to say goodbye to Jeannie. How the hell am I supposed to do that? Say goodbye to her and know that this didn't even have to happen. Know that I'll never be seeing her again because of some STUPID cancer problem. Why her? Why ANYBODY? So now we dont think we can get the tickets because we dont have enough money (were very short on money right now) and so my parents said were probably just going to go for the funeral. Like thats any better. Then there is Steven with his damn Leukemia. I went to see him yesterday with Chad and that was hard. I mean it's so amazing how he still has spirit. He looks totally different. His hair is gone, his cheaks are puffy and he goes up one flight of stairs and has to take a 10 minute rest. I HATE IT. I hated watching chad's face and I hated listening to the stories he told. But i knew i wanted to hear it because I want to learn more and i want him to get better so fast. he's doing better then Jeannie. and i hope he stays that way. aagh i cant even imagine.. i hate how it effects everybody why couldn't it just go away..just LEAVE. i can't even write anymore..

Well, Gramma leaves today at around 5:00pm...Grandpa's already gone...cooper leaves tomorrow. EVERYONE'S LEAVING ME!! I havnt really done anything today, turns out i couldn't watch the movie with gramma because she was really busy packing and stuff, but tonight after we take her to the airport I'm going to watch the pacifier with my family. I watched it last night and told them it was really good and so they want to watch it now and I'm not going to turn down watching it again-plus it's not every day i get to be with the whole family watching a movie. My birthday party is tomorrow so im pretty pumped for that. I think alot of other people are too...haha *cough* Bailey and Mac*...haha..woo, okay so yeah I think everyone knows about it, except for Greg...I can't seem to get ahold of that little bugger. i will though. So the girls are sleeping over and were going to be sleeping in the tent. I hope it thunder storms, it's so sweet when lighting strikes and lights up the whole tent, and I love the sound of the rain hitting the top of the tent. But i hope it will be nice for the day because i plan to go down to carburn and roast some yummy mashmellows, also play a funny game of baseball, just to laugh at Mackenzi. haha (I can already see it) I have no clue about what else were going to do though, but with my friends, we always think of some interesting stuff to do so hopefully it will all turn out okay. I have started ready the Harry Potter books. Well I'm on the 4th one and thats the onyl one ive read but ive seen the other movies. I'm already on chapter 15 or something, and I plan to finish it before the 4th movie comes out in November. The 6th book is already out and if anybody freakin tells me what happens in it i will like cry. Speaking of crying, my sister cryed when she got to the end of it...somebody dies..but hmm i wonder whooo. obviously someone very important. Anyways im really into this book. The only other books I have really gotten into were any book my Lurlene McDaniel. she's a good authour. I've never really been into reading. Actually at some points I hate it. Probably because Mrs. Handy drilled it into my head every damn day. We had a book report every fricken month and it usually takes me longer to read a book then a month. so of coarse I cheated at points...but that okay because Im sure if you ever asked anyone else that was in my class if they ever cheated they would say "Who didn't??" Not with this book though. I'm nto reading it because I have to, just becasue i'm really enjoying it.. and im very proud of myself :) I went to Edmonton for the Good Charlotte concert(which was amazing). I myself liked the waterpark the best..but thats like me, put my in some water and I'll swim like a fish..or a dolphin *Grins*. lol I took chad on the virticle slide for his first time. thats my favorite slide but yes still like the one where you get air. lol that ones crazy. but he like it. his first words were "oly shit" or something along those lines. haha I also went to warped tour for my frist time and it was really really really cool. Not alot of bands that I knew were there that time, but it was still amazingly good and i saw Mest which was what i was most excited about!! they were good and I was going to buy one of their tee-shirts but i couldn't find there damn tent. Me, Mac and Chad looked all over the place for it, and even my sister couldn't find it, but she told us about how sometimes the band's have trouble getting over the boarder so lots of their stuff doesnt come. That's probably what happend. Anyways that's all for now...I'll update you on my party maybe tomorrow night with the girls. *Katie

Well schools out and I'm done Jr.High for the rest of my life. I told myself I wasn't goig to cry...and I didn't! The only part that was hard for me was when I had to say good-bye to Mrs.Shoults. She's the most amazing teacher, and she was crying so I was like ahhh shit, and I cryed...AFTER I left though so nobody saw me:) My Gramma and Grandpa got here yesterday! woohoo! They are great. Except It's Canada day and they come from Ottawa...and the obviously go crazy there because it's the capital, so they have their eyes glued to the TV watching the parliament show. I'm going to show them all of my edgewater stuff in a bit. I already showed gramma my year book. When we got home from the airport yesterday, right away grandpa gave me and Jenn $10.00 each and then gramma gave us good-ol squeaky cheese and chocolate almonds! yummm... Then this morning before breakfast Grandpa gave us each a bingo card. (He usually gives us a couple each time he comes out) and so Jenn, Dad and I started on it right away, and by they end, none of us had won anything. So the only one left to win is grandpa and mom and if none of win besides grandpa..OOHH MAN. lol he wins almost everytime and none of us know how he does it. Chad is out quadding today. He got one for his graduating grade 9, but Preston told us it was really for him. haha. I've never been quading, but I guess I wont be for a while...speaking of that...I got my walking cast now. My scar is so crazy. Dr. Keiffer said the swelling wont go down until about another 6 months. thats a long time. Oh well I hope i dont have to wear my cast for at least one of the visits to Stampede. I'm not doing anything today that I now of besides showing Grandma and Grandpa edgewater stuff..and just hanging around. I might call Mac to come over or do something, because Bailey is at a family reuinion. My birthday is in 2 days! *Katie

Holy Shiiitttt! I wish I had money! This part of the year is always so hard and confusing because your planning what your going to be doing for summer and of coarse being the person I am..i never plan far enough ahead. So here i am..just figuring everything out now and still not being 100% sure about everything. So first comes Stampede which is like $50 spending money then theres the grandstand show and chucks*grins* which i owe my mom $25 for. Then there is warped tour on the 14th of July and that is $30 and god knows how much spending money I would want for that. Then there is Good Charlotte in Edmonton which is $55..and the same thing goes for spending money. The total of all that would come to the number of approximatly $160. Then again..i dont really know what I'm doing so we will just have to play it by ear. Thats not even one month!! AHHHH. anyways SOMEWHERE inbetween that mess is my birthday..lol the 3rd and Mac, BB and I were thinking of some things I could do. We came up with stuff like... go-karting..paintballing..golfing, pet-cetera party, cook off, camping, Sylvan Lake, West Edmonton Mall..umm whats else Hot springs, Picniz in the mountains, forget-me-not pond, bowness park with paddle boats..yah you get the point..anyways now im not sure if I'm doing anything like that because my parents said If i just want to have the friends over here for like picnic and a movie and just hang out then they would give me about $200. lol and I NEED that $200. Anyways thats explains the title in a way...im fine..just need to know that all this money stuff will be okay:) *Katie

Edgewater was so amazing. so amazing. I havn't ever had an experiance like that in my entire life. I loved it. I wasn't really sure what to expect either, even though everyone that I know who has been on it has loved it..I didn't know what I would think of it. Everyone said its the experiance of a lifetime, it's an amazing chance to find yourself, it's a wonderful trip...well they were all right. It's was sooo good. The bus ride there was the only thing that wasn't fantastic...haha. I laugh about it now though. I started to feel sick like 10-15 minutes into the 14 hour ride...so i moved up front and ended up puking in a buket half an hour in to the ride. haha. The teachers were so nice. I met one new teacher and He's sooo hilarious. His names...I'm not even going to try and spell it. (It's french)Mr. Day-coo-toe. Haha thats not how you spell it but that how I will. ANYWAYS, I was okay on the second day and from then on..It was so much fun and I loved seeing the ocean...oh my god it's so pretty. and its relaxing too. Everyone who went on the trip was nice. I have so many more friends...haha I mean not amazingly bestfriends but more people to say hi to in the hall! *grins* I got my grade 9 farewell dress yesterday. I like it...it's cool, it's not majorly fancy cuz I'm saving that for grade 12. I want a fucking princess dress for grade 12! Oh i can't wait. lol anyways I'm not going to look as pretty as the other girls though. I'll have a fricken hot pink cast on my leg and be wearing one shoe that covers my other effing bonion.I'm glueing a big flower on my flip flops to cover it. ahahaa. Yesterday I went to Alex's and it was sooo much fun. It reminded me so much of like 2 summers ago. that summer was great. It was the first summer with chad:) We set up his trampoline (that's a given) and just sat on it and talked and..bounced...obviously..I wish Bailey was there though because she makes it so much fun and I actually missed her at one point and I just wanted everyone that had that summer with us there. I have to get her to come another time...anyways then it started to POUR rain, and I mean POUR. everyone was soaked. LOL..it was me..chad..greg and alex by then. my hair curled, so I just took it all out of by bun. it was fuunnnnn. Then I had to run home..as usual..I always try and spend as much time as I can over there and end up booking it home. I made it like 3 minutes late..which is fine. Anyways that part was a good time in the day. That's all I have for now I think..America's next top model is on tonight. wooooohooo. *Katie

NoOOOOOOOoOoOoo! I'm gunna like cry...Edgewater is in less then a week and I'm sick. Its Sunday and we leave Thursday morning. My cold started like 3 daays ago I think...and Mom says that It will probably be gone or ALOT better by thursday or wednesday...Ive been going to bed early ever since I got it and stuff.. I'm just like praying that It will be gone for Edgewater... I'm pretty much all set for it though...not packing wise though. I've bought everything i need to except rubber boots because the ones that I was going to use broke. So me and Mom are going shopping for rubber boots today. I got the sweetest effing rainsuit ever. lol, its bright yellow and it has overalls and then a jacket. It's a normal one..but to me no rainsuit is normal so i like it. I also got 2 visors and a hat...one pair of shorts...and a huge battery for my huge flashlight. Bailey, Cooper and I went shopping for Mac's b-day present yesterday. I can't say wear because she reads this. lol but I think she'll like it. were gunna give it to her the day we wake up on the ship. (the day we come back is her birthday)I still have to save up for Bailey's present on the 22. $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ My Dad's not working again...his job didnt work out for him so he's all stressed out again and it scares me. Same with my mom. I mean, their still nice and stuff, I just worry too much about them. Money's tight right now and I don't have a job because of my surgry on the 25...AGH. it frusterates me because I want to do so much for friends and stuff but it's so earn the money. anyways let's not worry about that now. *Katie

Me and Chad had SOOO much fun today doing absolutly NOTHING. AND I LOVE IT ohh my god soo much fun. I can't think right now I am so happy with how today went. ahhhh! :)

WOOHOOO! 2 years! Two fucking years. Its funny, people were coming up to me today and saying “wow! You and Chad have been dating for 2 years? That’s crazy!” and I know it’s a long time for someone in Jr. High, but to me it just...time fly’s when I’m with him. He makes me feel so many feelings. Happy, excited, fabulous, mad, alive, pretty...special. There are so many words to describe how he makes me feel. People say you can’t fall in love at this age, and I really don’t know what to say to that. I mean, people say “everyone is different” and if everyone is different then they all must have different feelings on things and some people may fall in love when they are 5, 14, 20, 30, 40..some people may not ever fall in love, but I think that you can really fall in love at any age, and if you ask yourself “I wonder if I do love him” then you must feel some kind of happiness when your with the person. You may not love them like a boyfriend. But why not like a friend...why not a little more then a friend, or what about even just loving them for who they are. There are so many way to fall in love so I really believe that you can fall in love at any age or anytime. Anyways, I just know I wouldn’t be the person I am today without him. I love you! I got to go to Keith Urban!! Yaaaay! I bought a shirt at the concert for $40 but it was worth it. He’s amazing. Lol but I went with my sister and we had a blast. We sat on the second level of the Saddledome and we were talking about how we hate the second level only because hardly anybody stands. When we here a song we like, we just wanna get up and kinda dance and have funnn! But for the first couple songs NOBODY else did it and it was just us two and I we waited and wiggled in out seats but then as soon as “Somebody Like You” came on EVERYBODY got up and started to dance. I was like “yes!” Good parts were when he went around the rink and let people on the sides grab him and kiss him on the head-while he was still playing his guitar! Jenn said she just wanted to feel his soft looking hair. Another funny part was when he called up people from the floor that were holding a sign that said “Let me take you to my Outback” because he’s Australian. And he called up the people who had the sign and asked for their names and the last girl said “My names Lucky and I don’t know these people I just kind of came up” It was a great concert overall! Bailey, Mac and I are in the same cabin for Edgewater. It sucks…they are like the worst people to be stuck with. I’m kidding. It’s friggen awesome. Were gunna have such a good time! I can’t wait. Were going out to buy rubber boots and pj’s. Hopefully I’m getting spider man ones, Mac’s super man and Bailey’s bat man. I can’t wait!!! That’s all for now. *Katie

ugh..k so much is going on that i need to really find a way to get it out, so i decided to start this diary again, lol so now im gunna have 2 because i have another...yaah. well lots of stuff is at the stage where its like you have so much to say, but you dont know how to say it and when you finally figure out how to say it you think" oh nobody is gunna reallytake it to mind"... This one person that ive loved for my whole life...just everything..agh okay Bailey. Ive cried soooo many times about you since ive known, and dont take that the wrong way lol cuz ive known you for..what is it now? 9 years? thats not the point though, this past week i cried once more about you because of you maybe going to beaverbrooke. Well, i really need you and i may not act like it but i know theres other people too who need you. and i know you need some people too, and i dont know who that is but i know cooper is one of them and we all need someone but like i know that David Thompson put a really big impact on you that thats basically the reason why you kinda wanna go there too but im hoping that i put enough impact on you too, that, ugh see its back to that point again..i dont know how to explain, but im wondering if i should bother anyway... I dont knwo what will happen in high school if you go to Central...I dont know if we'll fall further apart or if we'll grow closer..all i know is that if just seeing you in the hallway, walking by...i know it would mkae me smile.I just love you and you know that with the dissision you make ill suport you, im just saying that with dt you were so happy and that i know youd be happy there, i dont want you to be broken anymore if thats how you feel, once again im not sure, but i also know that me and other friends put an impact on your life. and its hard for all of us too. because you mean that much to us. Im really not trying to make it hard. so whatever disision you make. Ill help you along the way. Another person that i love im really...agh with. Daycare, soccer, school...bestfriends. I seriously do not understand this one sentance "I need new friends, like mine are getting so old" I dont get it. Im so glad youre speaking your mind because thats we we told eachother too...and i dont stop you from doing that. I dont like how i am with you right now because when you try and talk to me i actually kind of go along with it. and i shouldnt after that.then again i never see you with the other person which makes me think that your not even trying with her. but it makes me wonder because you guys seemed really close. I know you would talk about alot of stuff and i see you making an effort with me but what about her. Im not giving in because i dont deserve to just give in. I'm making sure that we all talk about it. because if you say you really miss us i know that you would try and at least explain it to us face to face. *Katie