ugh..k so much is going on that i need to really find a way to get it out, so i decided to start this diary again, lol so now im gunna have 2 because i have another...yaah. well lots of stuff is at the stage where its like you have so much to say, but you dont know how to say it and when you finally figure out how to say it you think" oh nobody is gunna reallytake it to mind"... This one person that ive loved for my whole life...just everything..agh okay Bailey. Ive cried soooo many times about you since ive known, and dont take that the wrong way lol cuz ive known you for..what is it now? 9 years? thats not the point though, this past week i cried once more about you because of you maybe going to beaverbrooke. Well, i really need you and i may not act like it but i know theres other people too who need you. and i know you need some people too, and i dont know who that is but i know cooper is one of them and we all need someone but like i know that David Thompson put a really big impact on you that thats basically the reason why you kinda wanna go there too but im hoping that i put enough impact on you too, that, ugh see its back to that point again..i dont know how to explain, but im wondering if i should bother anyway... I dont knwo what will happen in high school if you go to Central...I dont know if we'll fall further apart or if we'll grow closer..all i know is that if just seeing you in the hallway, walking by...i know it would mkae me smile.I just love you and you know that with the dissision you make ill suport you, im just saying that with dt you were so happy and that i know youd be happy there, i dont want you to be broken anymore if thats how you feel, once again im not sure, but i also know that me and other friends put an impact on your life. and its hard for all of us too. because you mean that much to us. Im really not trying to make it hard. so whatever disision you make. Ill help you along the way. Another person that i love im really...agh with. Daycare, soccer, school...bestfriends. I seriously do not understand this one sentance "I need new friends, like mine are getting so old" I dont get it. Im so glad youre speaking your mind because thats we we told eachother too...and i dont stop you from doing that. I dont like how i am with you right now because when you try and talk to me i actually kind of go along with it. and i shouldnt after that.then again i never see you with the other person which makes me think that your not even trying with her. but it makes me wonder because you guys seemed really close. I know you would talk about alot of stuff and i see you making an effort with me but what about her. Im not giving in because i dont deserve to just give in. I'm making sure that we all talk about it. because if you say you really miss us i know that you would try and at least explain it to us face to face. *Katie