i dont know what im doing anymore, why do i put myself through the things i do? ive hurt the people who would have given the world to me. i miss them. i'll never get them back. ive had my fair share of karma...and i was told today by being with the girl im with now...im still "getting what i deserve"..what does that mean? why do i deserve this, i messed up in the past but who doesn't?..and i dont know who to believe...my ex who tells me morgan is liar, cheater, and will always be a deceitful person. or morgan who told me just lastnight "let your guard down andrea, im not gonna hurt you, give me your heart, its safe with me" .what am i supposed to believe? for ONCE in my life i trust someone with my whole heart..and now i hear that maybe i shouldnt? i know emma doesnt matter, she's never mattered...i let go probably the most important person in my life to be with emma...and what did i get? a broken heart...nothing else...nothing from emma and is relationship was worth the pain she put me through...we both messed up but i learned...she never did...so why am i letting what she says get to me? why cant i just be happy? and not worry about people say about morgan...or the relationship i have with her..