why do i always feel like i need someone to be happy, why am i such a freaking whore when it comes to dating girls?! i dont understand, in the past year that ive been out and openly dating girls, ive dated 9. thats a lot. i mean in that course of time emma was 8 months all together and morgan was 5 months but during the breakups there were others...thats bad. it makes me seem like a humongous whore. ive been single for a couple weeks now, in that time ive kissed 3 girls and have had sex with 1. 2 weeks and 3 girls. Why do i this to myself?! all it does is make me even more unhappy because at the end of the day, im still alone. i dont have one person to call my own, not one person that completes me..i think i know who that person is though, but shes not ready to be with me yet, she just got out of a 3 month relationship and shes taking time to get over her....why cant i do that? emma and my 8 month relationship was hard on me but i still went off and fell for morgan..but now im having trouble, its not so easy anymore, girls arent lying at my feet begging for a chance and thats all because they know all theyll be is rebound...im always in a relationship, im always fucking someone, or im always kissing on someone...im just still waiting for the day when that all will be real...and not just something to fill the emptiness...