Feeling: better that I let that out I hate how I feel. I really fucking do. It's ridiculous. I. Just. Hate. It. I was about to say Me, but I don't ALWAYS hate me. I don't mind me, but sometimes I DO hate me. I ... I don't know. I only like a few aspects of me. Some others are acceptable. The rest of it should go burn in hell. I guess everyone hates him/herself somehow and at one point. I'm not alone. I'm not alone. People have it worse. I had it worse. I shouldn't be complaining right now. I think it's the whole "I have my period" thing. Yeah. So Gym has been pretty good over all. Today, I did my straddle back witout a block/mat behind the bar at all. I'm getting there. I also did my mount into a cast pirouette, so this week or early next week I should have kip cast pirouette baby giant under swing timer; baby giant under swing straddle-back kip cast free-hip (to a decent height) kip cast free-hip (to a decent height) kip sole catch kip toe on off; toe on front off. *sigh* That's a lot ... and I can't wait!!! On Floor, I just need to keep my legs together in my Rudy, get a constant front full front and a front through to a Brani. I think I've figured out my passes and in order: Front full Front; Front through to a Brani; Rudy. I think that's pretty nice. Even balance and everything. Now I just need to constantly make a full routine at least once a day this week and next week. Then at least twice a day next week and the week after. Then I should be making full routines all the time. I can't wait!!! I must a personality complex or something. I almost completely two different people compared between School/Normal Life and RAA Gym. GAH! Anyways. That's my story lately ... or at least half of it. Amikra