Suicide's just a moment. For just a moment, it doesn't matter that you've got ppl who love you and the sun is shining or that there's a movie coming out this weekend that you've been dyin to see. It hits you all of a sudden that nothing is ever going to be ok.. Ever. And you kind of dare yourself: is this it? you start thinking that you've known this was coming all along, but you dont know if today's the day. And if you think about it too much, its probably not; but you dare yourself. You pick up the knife and you press it gently against your skin, you look out the 19th-story window and you think, I could just do it. I could just do it and most of the time, you look at the height and you get scared, or you think about the poor ppl on the sidewalk below- what if they are kids coming home from school and they have to spend the rest of their lives trying to forget this terrible thing you're going to make them see?