i feel satisfied in a sense..bc i almost let a whole bunch more shit off my shoulders. i cant walk away - its just not that easy to walk away from a certain something or someone. i think that u say u are over that one thing, have anger towards it to push it away and forget about it almost teachin ur self to hate that. in some cases i think thats good. and in others it may not be healthy. (im confused, too! sry!) anyway ... this mornin was exciting...then went from a "pissy - fuck you" mood for that certain reason that i first wrote about in this entry...to opening graduation presents with the family...and holy shit i got alot of money im so excited bc then i know i wont go into debt at the beach :D. anyway....the family time was fun..but then it was out with my ppl, not thinkin of anything - no drama nothing. i just had so much fun eating cheese poofs and drinkin pepsi laughin my ass off...watchin my friends dance - that is a major talent there.. lol and just chillin out. it made my day even better. it made up for the worse this morning. but anyway i can barely hold my eyes open - so if u read this all the way and can understand a damn thing i said, then i give u props... adios! :) -shan