Im so confusesd. like ah. so im gonna just vent to you all on sitdiary because a lot of you have good comments and such..so here i go. ive been single for almost a year. and well its comign to my attention that its gotta be my fault. Look at all the girls that get boyfriends. what should i just go be all over every guy i see? is that what the want? do they want me to be a whore? im sure i could pull it off.. do i deserve this? like did i do something wrong when i put up with my last boyfriends bullshit?..Sure i dont want to revolve my life around a guy, but it would be nice to know that at least one guy out there thinks im pretty, and worth spending time with i get so mad when i think about this stuff that it brings tears to my eyes...when i see all these girls they can get a boyfriend like nothing!!! they dont even have to try. and then they just use them or just dump them a week or 2 later. and there i am sitting there and ill pick up the pieces if they're my friends. Sure ill pick up the girls pieces & ill pick up the guys pieces. all in hoping that theyll tell a friend or something that "hey shes a really good friend and a cool girl" but they dont. they never do. i get myself all dolled up to go to the movies or anywhere and the most i get is a guy calling me a slut or a whore or a dyke. when god damn im none of the above. and sure i laugh because Hey at least they're paying attention to me. All i want is attention. i guess if im a whore im an attention whore. but dont all girls want a guys attention? doesnt it feel good to know that a guy is talking to you and keeping their eyes on you and no other fucking girl in the room? and i swear if im the only one who feels like this then maybe i should be sent off..Its like a feeling that eats you alive. but i have to stay positive so i dont stop smiling, i read all these fucking love quotes & i just think they have to be true something has to be true about love all of those "if you dont send this in 11 minutes youll be jynxed for the rest of your life" things...i send them all, repost them all thinking that maybe if there is an OUNCE of trueness is any of them that something good will happen or something will change or someone will notice that "hey shes pretty cool maybe i should get to know her" because god dammit. after every heartbroken guy thats come to me to comfort them why the HELL do they run back to the girl who did it? when i sit there and i listen to everything.. Im just so confused, i just need one person to open my eyes..just one... -lyndsey