Dude, I totally have to urinate right now. But there are plumber people working on our pipes or something in the front yard and we aren't allowed to run water for a few hours. Shitballs, this is frustrating!! This is the first time I've wished I was a guy so I could just whip "IT" out and piss in the backyard. Anyway, the Grady show was soo good. The first band sucked, but Grady did the BEST cover of Heartbreaker by Pat Benetar. Plus I hung out with a bunch of cool cats. The only bands I watched was Grady & then The Return (who also rocked). I like that guy's vocals. Saturday is Crazy Jennette with Sexual Jedi. That should be a very good show, indeed. There are going to be SO many people there. Gnarlystuff. Yesterday I went to Kody's and hung out with him & Joshie. J to the Osh offered me a quarter if he could stick his finger in my buttcrack but I denied him. It's 82 cents, geez!! Also coming up is orientation for school. Blegh. I totally don't wanna start school but then again I do. It's like a tug-of-war or something. Whateverrr. Can't slow time down so might as well go with the flow, right? Take it easy, sleazies. -Justine edit... [bored] LAST PERSON WHO . Slept in your bed: myself . Saw you cry: Myself . You shared a drink with: ...kody! apple juice . You went to the movies with: Brooke & Chris . You went to the mall with: brooke . Yelled at you: my mom . Sent you an email: myspace HAVE YOU EVER BEEN TO... . California: I'd hope so... I live here don't I? . Hawaii: no . Mexico: Yeah . New York: no . Las Vegas: no HAVE YOU EVER: . Danced naked: Hahaha no . Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: mhm... "pass me a burrito?" . Wished you were the opposite sex: today when i had to piss . Do you have a crush on someone: mhm, well i dont know if it counts cuz we're dating but uhh i guess so . What book are you reading now: better than running at night by hilary frank . Worst feeling in the world: Not being good enough, having to pee when you can't, the feeling RIGHT before you throw up. . Future daughter's name: Aiden Rose . Future son's name: Kieran Ryder . Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: Newp . What's under your bed: who knows . Favorite sport to watch: baseball i guess. . Siblings: sisters, 8 & 4 . Location: dirty ventura, hahaha . College plans: *shrug* . Piercings/tattoos: ears . Do you drink: ehh, not really no . What are you most scared of: small, confined spaces. . What clothes do you sleep in: t-shirts. Where do you want to get married: the beach somewhere, where its always warm . Who do you really hate: no one . Do you drive: nopeee . Do you have a job: nopeee . Do you like being around people: yeah most of the time . Are you for world peace: For shure . Are you a health freak: Hahaha, nah . Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: Nah . Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: if you consider, "ASSHOLE" a type, then yeah i guess so . Song thats stuck in your head a lot: a doors song. or any song thats on the radio . Do you want to get married: yeah i guess. i dunno i could live without marriage. . Do you want kids: NO. i'm getting animals. or adopting. FAVORITES . Type(s) of music: i have too many different types. i like classic rock & alternative a lot though . Band/Group(s): judging from the posters on my walls you'd think it's either the doors or sex pistols, lmao. i have too many though. . Color: aquamarine! . Perfume or cologne: Ck one summer; cococabana; strawberry daquiri . Month: november, july . Flower: sunflowers IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU... . Cried: almost . Bought something: del taco . Gotten sick: nope . Sang: mhm . Met someone: nope . Missed someone: Yep . Hugged someone: Yep . Kissed someone: Yep . Had an orgasm: i'm a walking orgasm . Became shy around someone: nope . Been to the diner: uhh no . Exercised: i walked! does that count?

But you know, he's probably laughing at all her jokes like he's never heard the punchline before, and she's giggling like she's the most clever thing to ever grace the earth as the moon rays are shining through the blinds and casting shadows across her face. and she talks like she knows all the secrets in the world and he's leaning forward hanging on her every word like the tear is hanging on your eyelash. the sunlight will break on unopened eyes. and the song on the radio is the only consolation you have. So you pretend it's laughing at all your jokes like it's never heard that one before and you talk like you know the world's every secret, while the moon rays shine through the blinds and cast shadows across the walls. and you pretend everybody is leaning forward, leaning on your every word just like the tear that is clinging to your eyelash. the sunlight breaks on unopened eyes. the tear falls on your cheek like that bottle that falls to the floor. just like your head hitting the pillow. the sunlight breaks upon unopened eyes. [edit] Today I had a good day. Tickle fights are fun.

Gangsterrrs & thugs... Some of my friends sell records [Some of my friends sell drugs] Hah. Today is the Selah cafe show w/ Singled Out && AOF. I'm kind of excited. I also am going shopping today and again tomorrow. Garrett is going to the show tonight so hopefully it won't suck or else I'll feel bad for convincing him to go. So I didn't really convince him but still. The day is being wasted. I have to go wake Kassie. I'll talk to you all later. Peece&Lauv [♥]Justine

Okay so... I don't know what the hell is going on with me. It's like an emotional rollercoaster. I think that I think too much. Nick and I are supposed to hang out today but I don't know if we are because he hasn't called and it's 3:20 pm. I told myself if he didn't call by 2:30 then I would just forget about it and make plans with some one else but I really want to see him, damn it. I hate being attached. I guess last night wasn't TOO bad. I stayed in. I watched O'Grady, which is like, the funniest show ever. I love it. I talked to Nick until like 11:30 or 12 and then I went to sleep. Woke up around 10:30 and ate some cereal, watched Knights Tale on TBS. That movie is so funny. I love the red-haired guy and the poet. Aww. Anyway I just got out of the shower and I feel soo much better. I washed my face and brushed my teeth and put lotion on and real clothes instead of PJ's. Yum. K well I'm going to go to Kassie's, I think. Anyway. Peace! _justine edit: later Soo Im chillaxin at the Lassinator's. It's now 5 minutes to 7 and Nick still hasn't called me. Fucker. Whatever I'm over it. Anyways we went to the store and I got a bunch of food from the store and we watched Whose Line Is It Anyway? and MADTV. Now we're just lounging around not doing anything. I'm watching Seth Green on Mad TV. I love Seth Green. He's so funny. K well we're gunna go chat it up with my friend Matt on Kassie's mic hahaha. Peace! ♥_justine

Tra la la. Does something ever happen to you and you just like... Float on clouds? A smile still hasn't faded away from my face, and I'll never tell why. Just know that I am better than I've been in... A long time. I mean I've been happy and stuff but this goes so far beyond that it's like crushing but in a really good way. It's like...A deep tissue massage... I don't know, you just can't explain this in words. and as he looked into her eyes and said the words she longed to hear, she looked up to the sky and sent through a silent prayer, "thank you god for this gift i have received, for this gift is the greatest it could ever be. not possessions or any unearthly thing, but this thing it has saved me."

Why hello everybody! How are we on this lovely Thursday evening? I'm doing really good. My day was pretty good. I got to school on time, and in German we had a sub who is indeed a lardass. No joke. I'm so excited for Spring Break to come. I cannot wait!! No school for an entire week, and weekends on both sides? Shiit, sounds good to me ;). Anywho, I don't know what to write about. Today I swam in PE and it was the last day of the unit. Siman pretended to have a heartache. I proceeded to attempt to throw a shoe at him and make him fall backwards into the pool, but alas I was shoeless for I was in my suit and towel already. How tragic... But yeah I love swimming, just not in PE. We had to do 10 laps and I realized that is a lot of laps. It's hard!! I was soo tired after the first like...4. Twas pathetic. Soo anyway I'm super bored so I think I shall depart. G'bye! Hugs not Drugs! -Justine

I'm bored sitting at home so I thought I would write a new entry just because I'm so fucking cool. Today I went to the talent show at Ventura High. It was alright. My favorite act was when these guys covered My Generation by The Who. They smashed their guitars at the end and they sounded really good. I didn't like the Thunderstruck guys (AC/DC cover, you guessed it!). Paul was there and I realized just how unattractive he is. His face is like incredibly red all the time... I don't know, it's just not appealing at all. I think it's his personality showing through as well. "A thin layer of beauty but a deep rotten inside." He doesn't even have the thin layer of beauty!! Haha. My teacher was all stoked on my English story or whatever. So yeah. That'd be pretty cool if I won something. My neck hurts. I want to talk to Nick. FUCK. I always want to talk to Nick. Kass is so psyched on Tyler. It's cute. ;) tee-hee. He's a good lookin' fellow if I do say so myself. He's quiet, though. That's alright. Anyways leave me bunches of comments. Love, Justine

How can a heart that is broken still beat? This is a question that I have spent many nights contemplating, searching my cottage-cheese ceiling for the answer, a question that spins and thrashes within the human mind. It never should have happened. Not all things should, but they do. It should never hurt so badly or make you cry so much, you should never live to tell the tale. But life goes on. It tends to be like a friend who really wants to go somewhere, but you just don’t feel up to it, but yet you find yourself being dragged along for the ride by your collar anyway. That’s just how it goes. It was a clear night, so clear and clean that I lay down in the grass outside of her condo and stared up at the sky and the stars and the clouds and the moon. It was so beautiful, dark blue crushed velvet, crushed California sky velvet. I found myself reaching up to that crushed California sky velvet, trying to pull myself up into the abyss. Like an abandoned child who reaches for a mother who is not there, my call also went unanswered. We were just being typical teenage girls. Her parents were gone until the sun would have already risen, and she was hoping to have her love at her house in her arms on the black leather couch. I was hoping to have the same. River was his name. What a walking statement of contradiction. I now vehemently insist that he is the descendent of a certain infamous Dr. Jekyl. But, what a Greek god he was. Standing at a lean (and slouchy) 6’2, with a body that no girl could ignore when it was shirtless, shaggy blonde hair that told tales of endless beach days, a smile that was like the sunrise, bright and beautiful. He had grass green eyes so gorgeously blended and perfected with that blonde hair, it was difficult to say he was, to say the least, gorgeous. His eyes were the pinnacles of his teenage perfection: that grass green would change to blue, a faded jean blue with his mood. It wasn’t just his male model beauty that sent me diving straight into the deep end without learning first how to swim. It was his mind. He had an aura of simple joy that drew me to him. We would spend endless hours logged on the phone, discussing every thing from heartbreaks to fathers that break promises, to music to books to everything in between. He left the pessimist in me speechless, and soon that pessimism faded away like an old photograph. The bottom line: He matched my intelligence how my friends had never even managed to. I’ll always remember something he said to me. “You’re so smart. Flaunt that, and people will never mess with you because they’ll know that they can’t.” There is always a good and a bad side to everything, though. Adolf Hitler’s secretary maintains that he was never cruel or mean or malevolent to her, but yet he still found it in him to exterminate 6 million Jews. River’s bad side was that he was not just a wise 16 year old, but a hormonal one. One with alcohol and drug use problems, but he wouldn’t say problems. He would say, “enjoyment.” this is a story that i'm writing for english class. tell me what you think.

Soo today is finally Friday Except today sucks. Like a lot. Except for right now, cause Im at Kass's house but...besides that. SUCKAGE. I went to school and shit and I was looking forward to after school because I was SUPPOSED to go downtown and meet Nick (FINALLY) but... No. My plans can NEVER work out. EVER. Its like, against the rules of Justines Life. Anyway so I take the bus downtown and its cold and raining and wet and I only have 1.25 to take the bus and I got downtown and i waited...and waited...and waited...and I called Nick and he was like "oh sorry I cant come blah blah blah Im stupid blah blah blah". So that didnt work. I know its not his fault cause his mom and she was like oh sorry you cant see your girlfriend today because i promised your grandma that we would hang ou with her tonight. but still it sucks. i was cold and wet and broke and alone. i did not like it one bit. soo now im just chillin at kassies house and listening to guns n roses while she shows me some thing on this CD and N.E.R.D. thing who knows shes on crack, haha i almost said "CRASS" whooops. anyways yeah i dunno what else. tomorrow were going thrift store shopping and then sunday i dunno. tonight well be on her computer and getting fat by eating ding dongs. SCORE! peace & love, -justine- [edit: 3/19] Today was way cool. we woke up and went downtown at like 9;30 or 10 and hung out for awhile, going into thrift stores and little shops and stuff. I bought starbucks and we sat in front of Ben And Jerry's. then Kass had to go to the bathroom so we went into Nature's Grill and I saw a flyer for a peace rally so we went to that from 1-4. It was really cool and way powerful. They had signs and speakers and stuff and this really cool band that played an acoustic guitar and had like african drums kinda like bongos. but yeah it was way killer. we got pictures, ill post 'em soon. There's supposed to be a demonstration the first friday of every month at the government center at 5 so Im gunna go to that too. Next Friday is a film being shown at school about african kids in nugandu or something and theyre being kidnapped from ages 5-12 and turned into soldiers and prostitutes and stuff. Gnarly. People hit on us alot. its cause kass is so damned tempting. SSSSS hot hot hot hot hot. K well gotta go Love -Justine PS - no word from nick today :( :( :( [end edit] [edit: 3/20] Gah. So it's like 10 52 and Im at Kassie's. My uncle is coming right now so I can go home and take a shower and stuff. I feel soo icky. Anyway yesterday was cool. I forgot to tell you that I might be on TV!! We were sitting in Mission Park and this guy was shooting the peace rally for channel 6 and he asked me to read this poem. It was kind of weird but yeah. Hopefully I don't die or something because he was kind of creepy. We went to Wild Planet and I bought a Smashing Pumpkins CD!! I'm so happy, it was only like 7 bucks. SCORE!! It's "Adore". It's a good album. Then we went down to Surfer's Point and Kass took some cool pics of the beach and stuff. Then we went walking in the sand and it felt really good because I haven't walked in the sand for a really long time. Then we went up on the pier 'cause we had to go to the bus stop but then these weird mexican guys on bikes tried talking to us and they asked for our names and I said mine was Vanessa. ;) I'm such a liar! Anyway I want to see Nick but the butthole is sick. Sick. Riiight. ;) Kidding. But yeah, gah. So i'm going to be sitting at mi casa doing nothing. i'll probably go for a leisurley stroll through the neighborhood...or something. K well I'm gunna head out. Peace! -Justine [end edit]

Life is ok, nothing new to report. Sorry if I don't get back to everyone's comments, Im on my uncles computer and it's messed up too. Did I mention how much technology sucks? Anyway I got an A++ on my Math report :) :) and I had to write an ephiphany paper for English talking about when we had an ephiphany and I talked about the time in the last year that has hurt me the most (for obvious reasons) and she gave me an A+ and wants me to submit it to these contest things. SCORE Nick is down, and we couldnt hang out today but hopefully we will tomorrow :) :) I came home and fell asleep on the couch. It felt good. Im still tired. Drown me in the shallow water Before I get too deep I know what I know If ya know what I mean peace & love -justine-

Nothing new. 3 days!! K well Im gunna go watch Donnie Darko XD I got new shoes Kinda (almost) And new pants. Much Love Justine

Hey guys sorry for the lack of updates. Even though it's only been like 3 days that feels like an eternity. Anyway yesterday was pretty cool. These past few days have been pretty cool now that I think about it. Yesterday I took the bus (which is free until the Scat buses get back to running) to the mall with Brooke, and then we met up with Kassie. We spent like 3 hours in Toxic talking to Alex and the other guy that works there. man that's a long time!! But yeah it was really cool. I really enjoy talking to him. On...Tuesday I went to Chris's baseball game (yet again, with Brooke!) and they won. Daniel was there which surprised me. I didn't think he'd go. But yeah. He was really annoying me. All he did was talk about how he's irish and how he ♥ the band Cheap Sex. I was like thinking, "Dandy. Shut the fuck up!" Gah I'm really hungry. I better get going before I worry the Brookster hahahaha. Anyway life sucks right now but not too bad. It'll all be better in 5 days. 5!!! K well much love Peace -Justine-

'Sup cool kids? My weekend has been pretty okay so far. Nothing really eventful has happened. I did realize that I am some what of a home-body lately. Haha I almost put home-boy. Whoops. Friday I rented movies, then Saturday I spent all day babysitting a 6 yr old named Steven. I hung out with my uncle too, so that was cool. He found out I've smoked weed before, he wasn't mad. He just laughed and was all interested. "How'd you like it?" "Ehh. I didn't, really." "I would have figured you'd have liked it! It would enhance your talkative personality." "Mehh. Not really. It was just like the most regular normal things were funny. I pushed Evan around in a shopping cart and laughed at the lady's face at 7-11." After awhile we went to this Gem and Mineral show at the fairgrounds. It was pretty cool, there was some really gorgeous colors there. EXPENSIVE motherfuckers, too. I'm such a cheap, that's okay. Today I went shopping with mi madre 'cause I got $32 for baby-sitting. It was in a check so she took the check and gave me $40 out of her checking account. We went to Bed Bath & Beyond and I want some sheets. Egyptian cotton, 400 thread count. Jesssuus that shit is soo soft. I'm such a nerd :p I watch far too many Queer Eye episodes :). Then we went to Target and I bought a really cute (and comfy) tank top, a curling iron, The Best of Bowie CD, and Donnie Darko Director's Cut on DVD. Sweeet. a week and a day until Nick finally arrives! I convinced my mom to let me redo my room this summer. I want to make it bright colors, and get blinds that are like cloth instead of the ugly bland plastic things I have now. I wanna get rid of the clutter as well, and get this hand chair, papi sun chair or bean-bag at Couch Potato. Haven't decided yet. I have yet to make the final design, but there is NO way I'm letting this go. I am so doing it. I cleaned a lot of programs off of my computer and did a virus scan, and deleted Limewire. Why can't they have a free music download that doesn't fuck up your computer? God. Anyways Im gonna jet like an airplane! Peace and Love -Justine-

I didn't go to school yesterday so I just slept all day pretty much. My cat slept on me too and he wouldn't let me get up, the fat bastard. :) (I lauv my kitt-tee) Toucha toucha touch mee...I wanna be DIIIRTY! I rented Rushmore and Donnie Darko last night. I haven't watched Rushmore yet, so we'll see how it goes. But I watched Donnie Darko and I really liked it a lot. I think I've got it all figured out now. I've been working it out in my brain. "Im so in it"-Garden State. I'm such a fucking movie junkie. Im going to make a shirt that says that. Ill go to Michael's or someplace and get iron on letters and I'll get a shirt and it'll say, "Movie Junkie" on it. Muwahaha. Anyyways life is good. I drank one cup of coffee this morning and my stomach aches. I don't think you're supposed to drink coffee on an empty stomach. All well I'm so paranoid. That's okay. Gah you know what bothers me? Ok so I was watching this show called Radio Free Roscoe (Dont ask) and there's this girl Lily on it. What gets me mad is that if the producers want to try and portray a 'modern' girl, they got it all right. Lily is a girl who pretends to know how to play guitar and write music (she can but...shittily), a girl who lies to her best-friend-turned-boyfriend about loving him, then makes out with about 209489493 different guys in like...a week. There are a bunch of those girls out there now but she just annoys the fucking shit out of me. Stupid slut. They got modern girls RIGHT on didn't they? Fuckers. TV sucks today. I mean...Whatever happened to classic shows like The Munsters or Beavis & Butthead or I Love Lucy?! =p me and my fucked up vision of how tv should be. I have to watch my sister. I fucking hate my sister. I don't think you understand. She's...Bloody...Annoying. As fuck. I mean. Spawn of Satan. We aren't full siblings so I can say that. I think my mom fucked the Devil Then out came sheyanna.

Echo, echo... We come, we go-woah No I don't want to be just another Echo, echo... Everywhere I go There's something I really need Everyone I know Is someone I want to be Even though I don't really know me I better pick it up Before I let it slip away I better stick it out Before I take another day Into mouth Everything I say fades out Echo, echo... We come, we go-woah No I don't want to be just another Echo, echo... Can I open up your eyes? Only when the clouds break? Can I feel the light? Even though the world shakes Every night, You're my quiet satellite Can I hold you close? Until you're out of focus And everything I know I don't even know this It all falls through I'm here and I hear you Echo, echo... We come, we go-woah No I don't want to be just another Echo, echo... Do you hear me? Do you hear me? Cause I need to, just to reach you Do you hear me? Coming clearly? Am I hollow? Just an echo Echo, echo... We come, we go-woah No I don't want to be just another Echo, echo... Echo, echo... We come, we go-woah No I don't want to be just another Echo, echo...

Dear Diary, Do you ever wish you just would have bitten your tounge and not said anything? Because as soon as you say some thing you realize that you didn't mean it or it came out completely wrong and you just wish that it would just disappear? I feel like that some times. Not always, because I try not to regret things too much, but sometimes I feel like that. Like now. After I said some thing I realized that it was just my mind playing tricks on me, fooling with my insecurities. Now I'm afraid I may have messed up a very good thing with some one extremely special. I don't think I did but I'm so afraid that he will think something that is not true. Anyway, I should get to happier things. Nick got my package yesterday and he seemed totally excited and happy about it. I was so nervous, I didn't know if he would like the stuff or not. I'm so glad he did. Also, yesterday I bought and started to read The Great Gatsby. I really like it a lot, it's so neat. It sounds so real!! My grades are the following: C, A, C-, F, C, C. I have to pull up the C- (which shouldn't be hard at all) and the F (which will be incredibly difficult). Gah. Today I ran the mile in 10 mins. and 44 secs. Haha woot-woot for Justinee!! That's my best time all year, bitches!! ;) So anyway theres really nothing else to report. Grady got a spot in the Buena newspaper, so I cut it out :) Nik was mentioned a lot & I told him. He was like, "If it makes it any funnier we were really fucked up when she was interviewing us!" I laughed. Boys. K well I'm going to go. Peace And Love, -Justine [edit-6:52 pm] Soo I changed my layout. I finally found one I liked. I mean I loved the Silverchair, but the way the lettering overlapped was incredibly annoying and hard to read. Soo yeah. Hope you all like Rocky Horror ;) Theres so much shit I wish I could say But whenever I open my mouth they fall out Onto the ground Shattering Splintering Shining...Blood against concrete. I want you to know that I fucking love you [end edit-6:55 pm]

ok so... another edit. i just feel like not good enough for anything anymore. thats ok though. its just a phase and i'm such a stupid idiot. i'll be ok. why should i go and want to ruin things even when hes coming down in like...two weeks? i know i know but im just going to let it go because honestly it doesnt matter. he reassured me last night without even knowing it so i'll be ok and he'll be ok and we'll be ok. SHOUT OUT TO LASSIE! I LOVE YOU! Peace And Love, -Justine

Soo today was a fabulous day!! I woke up and got ready and I made it to school before the bell rang. So I got to talk to Chris, and last night I gave him this pep talk about him getting dumped [*:(*] and then he wrote me a note last night just saying how much he was so grateful for me and how I've always been there for him & he'll never forget me & stuff. It made me almost cry, it was so sweet. Then he let me read his journal, where he writes and stuff. It was really moving but Im glad that he let me do that. We're so much closer than ever. So I left him a little note telling him how he'll be ok and how he's a smart guy, and how this will make him stronger. After he read it he gave me a hug, awe. My classes went ok. We had a sub in German, Mr. Lockman f'in rocks. So I got to sit there and mess around with Adrian's iPod. "Cool beans" as Chris would say. Then in Math I had a Math test the whole period...I think I did a good job :) hopefully. During 3rd hour I had a Group Meeting and it was so sad. Courtney started crying because of something that happened with her dad, and it made me so sad. There's a new guy, Patrick. He's really cool, he's quiet but I like him because he looks at you when you talk. Like he's interested. I feel kind of bad for him, he's stuck in the group with all girls. ;) Courtney was like, "I bet you feel like a pimp, Patrick!!" and he was like, "I wish!" During 4th I had to write this exam essay and it sucked, my hand started cramping up. Stupid hand. *Glares down at hand while typing with evil look on face*. "I swear to God hand if I didn't need you I'd cut you off!!" =p. [music change: fallout boy - Moving Pictures] 5th period we went on a 2 mile walk...And we finished in half an hour. I did surprisingly good, though. I think I'm getting used to them. Maybe it was the skipping instead of running to catch up? Foods Class, 6th period. We had the flippin' coolest sub EVER...Mr. Irving is like what Mr. Williams was to Anacapa. Oh my gosh Irving is soo like...NEATO! Hahaha. He's really funny & fun. And he let us go early =D that earns major cool points in my book. Anyway, I'm waiting for 5:30 to roll around. i'm going to my darling Ambee's today at 6:00 because her madre threw her a surprise b.day party :) :) soo yeah. Im going to feel bad, I didn't get her anything **yet**. Im gunna use the money I earn tomorrow so yahh. Hopefully Ill find some cool shit. Go downtown on Sunday and poke around :). Kk well I just thought I'd write a quick entry. I'll see you guys later!! Have a good one, Justine {edit} Soo I just got back from Ambee's party. It was so fun!! At first when I got there I felt really awkward because I was like the only kid who wasn't punk or fashionxcore, but it ended up good in the end. Trent did the "truffle shuffle" which is soo funny. And Jayce & Trent & Hannah inhaled a bunch of helium, and it was soo hilarious. Jayce can shake his butt like a black girl, which is funnier than fuck. It got really hot in the garage so we all went outside & smoked, and I was FAH-REEZING so Jayce let me wear his jean jacket, cause I guess he's one of those weirdos who's like never cold. Then we ewnt back inside and had cake (*went..Im too lazy to go back and correct it) and then we straightened Trent's hair, which looked soo fucking cool. Then we straightened Jayce's hair, which looked even funnier. I found out alot. Like they dont like Cody (which I already knew), or Devon (which I didn't). But yeah I just thought I'd update on the pizarty. Im looking forward to tomorrow, 'cause they'll be at Cody's b.day bash. (even though they don't like him). {end edit} [edit, 2/26] This morning I had to be woken up at like...8 because my mom's friend was supposed to bring her kid over to babysit, but then she never brought him. So I went to Target with my grandma and I got: +Betty boop & Bam-Bam from the Flinestones PJ pants +Mascara +A new bra (yessss...Its soo flippin comfortable!! Im wearing it right now ^_^) +Garden state DVD (SCORE!!) +Water flavored stuff that is soo good (thank you Katy Harp!) Then we went to the post office and I got an envelope and I have like 14 bucks so I'm going to mail it to Nick, and I'll try and make it all fast so he'll get it on like Monday :) or tuesday :). Soo yessss That's what's happened so far It's only 11:51 dayuum. [end edit:2/26]

Hey. I was getting sick of scrolling down all kinds to check my comments so new entry time. I didn't go to 6th period because I feel like I got socked in the stomach by Mike Tyson. It hurts soo fucking badly, dude. I don't even know why. It just started up. I thought it was like hunger pains (because I dont have $$$ to eat at school) but like I ate some of my friend's food and stuff and I scrounged 75 cents to buy chips && it still didnt go away. Then in PE my teacher made me "run" the mile. So I walked. With an average of 7 minutes per lap. Scooorrrre. :rolls eyes:. Mr. Siman can be so mean sometimes. Anywayyy so yeah. I was bummed cause we're making snickerdoodles in class today too, damn it. Saturday night Cody is having a party. Katie & her b.f will be there. We're cool. Like....Neutral was how Code put it. Soo yahh. Then on Friday Im going to Ambee's surprise b.day party. How exciting :) NICK IS MOVING DOWN!! IN LIKE TWO WEEKS!!! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEK!! He told me last night & I got soo excited & happy. Duddeee this rocks. Well Im gonna go fucking grub out. IM SO HUNGRY!!!! I want my stomach ache to go away :( Love you all!!! Take it easy -Justine

Well Robbie wanted me to write a new entry, so here I am, typing away. I'm not sure what to write about, but I guess I'll figure something out. No people, I am not really high. I just feel high because that's how I feel every time I wake up. Yes, I just woke up. I can't even type properly. I'm going to try to not make any mistakes hardly. Type slower. I'm an idiot. Anyway. It's 10:52 am and I have a headache. I was watching 'Animal Cops Houston' on Animal Planet (yes I watch Animal Planet, don't bag on me, animals are cute) and it's so sad. I don't see how any person could ever be cruel to an animal like those people. In some cases, animals. There were people who were like, "Oh I'm sorry, I'm gonna get my animals back," and they were all mad and stuff. It's like, "Dude what the fuck? You deserve to die." I hope that they get stuck in a mobile home filled with their own shit and piss and they're left to starve. See how they fucking like it. Dumbasses. I don't have very much remorse for people like that. In fact, I have none. I showered. My hair smells like apples. appels+oranges *the smashing pumpkins* Nick and I talked on the phone for four hours last night. It rained a lot, too. It's supposed to rain every day for the next two weeks. I certainly hope it does. I love the rain a lot. There's a flash flood warning until Tuesday. I love how in Southern California there are always a Flash Flood Warning if it rains more than 1/2 an inch. I think it's just because our area isn't supposed to get a lot of rain and when it does the weather people freak out. Stupid weather people. I think we need to build Southern California for more rain, like protect against it. If my favorite Bob Seger song gets interrupted so I can hear that stupid fucking, "buzzzzzzzzzz, buzzzzz, buzzz, BUZZZZ, ERRRRRRRRR, THIS IS A FLASH FLOOD WARNING. THE NATIONAL WEATHER SERVICE HAS RELEASED A FLASH FLOOD WARNING FOR VENTURA COONTY, LA COONTY, AND SAN BERNIDENO COONTY. OBSERVE YOUR SURROUNDINGS AND IF YOU ARE IN DANGER, PLEASE SAVE YOUR LIFE AND GET TO HIGHER GROUND." They seriously say county like coonty, too. God my brain hurts. I wish I had music on this account on our computer. I want to listen to Rise Against. Okay well I'm going to go. Love Always, Justine