hey. i'm kinda depressed right now but really happy at the same time.... does that make any sense? probably not. i'm depressed cause i'm just not feelin so hott, and i'm happy cause i think my ex, Scott, just dumped or got dumped by his new gf of exactly nine days. ha. Ha. HA! lol. i went out with him for nine months, and then when i dumped him because he was driving me up a wall he wouldn't even talk to me for a while. but the thing is when someone's a part of your life for so long and then they just drop out of it you miss them.... a lot. i don't know why i missed him. cause honestly he was pervy, NOT cute, egotistical and really just not that bright. i guess i didn't miss him exactly, i just missed the idea of him. the idea of having someone there to hold me and love me and be there for me. i missed having a boyfriend. i still do. and THEN the little f*er IMs me one day and is like "i got a girlfriend." okay, how LOW does someone have to be to tell their ex that they got someone new?? that's just stupid. and then of course i did exactly what he wanted me to do, i got pissed. i wasnt pissed cause he got a gf, i mean the girl is really pretty and nice and everything, i think i was just pissed cause as my best friend EVER carolyn said, i "wanted him to want me." which is true i guess. but i wish it wasn't. i once heard that the number of years you loved someone times two is the number of years it takes you to get over them. i really hope that's not true, cause i think i'm already over him. but if it is true, i guess i'll be getting over scott in July of 2007. ladies and gentlemen, lets start the countdown.