there are 75 people in my class and about half of those are boys. that makes about 1 in 17 boys that are actually hott and likeable and wonderful, which makes 2 in my class. I've liked one of these boys since about 5th grade (pathetic i know). at the beginning of this year i thought he liked me. he makes about any excuse to touch me, talks to me all the time, is gorgeous, basicaly we flirt allll the time. unfortunately, one of my friends is tall and blond and super-skinny and surprise surprise, he asked her out. so they're still together, though they're pretty rocky right now. so because she's one of my best friends i end up hanging out with those guys all the time, and the more i get to know him the more i like him. seriously, there's nothing about him i don't like. he's amazing. 5'10 or 11, hazel eyes, blond, built, ahh, so gorgeous. he seems like he really likes me and i know i'm on his list of top 5 girls, but if he likes me that much then why hasn't he asked me out?? such mixed signals are being thrown at me right now. and then my other predicament is that even if they were to break up and him ask me out then i still shouldn't say yes because she's my friend and friend's exes are so off limits, but honestly i almost care about him more than her. i know that sounds so terrible but it's true and it's not like anyone who actually knows me is gonna read this diary so w/e, i don't care. on to the second guy. he likes one of my friends, but when he thought she like hated him he liked me. then as soon as that girl found out he liked me now she made chelsea tell him that she did like him after all, just so he wouldn't like me anymore and ould like her, even though she can't date anyway. so she would rather he was completely wasted and nothing with them can happen instead of letting him have a real relationship. she always is competing with me, with grades, looks, boys, everything. this is like the first guy that's liked her and she is a total bitch to him and really controlling, and i don't see why he likes her when she's that mean to him. i also dont see why, if she likes him back, she would be that mean anyway. so the other night, me, him, chelsea, and the girl he likes were all at his house and i was on one side of him and the girl he likes was on the other side and he put an arm around booth of us. so i grabbed the hand that was around my shoulders. then he started pouting like he kinda does a lot and got up and moved away a little later. later he told my friend the girl he likes that he was just so sad because he knows she likes him and he likes her but they can't go out so he was just really sad about that, and also that he was scared i was hitting on him. BUT HE LIKED ME ANYWAY AND HE PUT HIS FREAKING ARM AROUND ME BEFORE I DID ANYTHING!!! WHY would he do that if he didn't want me to touch him???!!! i'm so mad about that. you might have noticed that my "feeling" for this one was BLONDE. that's because i feel like an idiot for wanting guys that don't want me. no, scratch that. they both want me but they both want someone else more. someone please comment me. i need some advice, expecially on whether or not if my first guy and his gf break up if it would be okay for me to date him. they haven't gotten into it(kissing, etc.) but they've been going out for kinda long. i really don't want to hurt my friend but i want him so much. he isn't just some guy to me.