I'm being really seriouse about the suicide! I f*ing hate everyone! I cried myself to sleep last night thining about Cityboy i miss him so much and im getting to the point where im just going to blow off my head! No one understands me and they 1/2 to fuck with my head and i cant take it ne more!!! Just because i wear a fake smile on my face doesnt mean im happy. Deep inside im broken hearted and i just want to be home and away from everybody. In school im nothing but a slut(well thats what ppl call me) Idk what i going to do!!! no one wants to be with me i get palyed all the fucking time!! I have really low self esteem and everyone just makes me feel like shit. PPl tell me im ugly and fat but if i say it i get yelled at by ppl! i just fucking hate life i just want to die!!!!!!!!!