hello again. so my computer decided to get totally messed up so i couldnt do anything on this site, let alone any others. but these past days have been hard.. i cant stop thinking about my friend, arin. To make matters worse.. i have forgotten what it feels like when you like someone.. you know that feeling.. i havnt liked someone in such a long time.. (probably a year) because i have been busy with so much other stuff.. but not more then ever i need a destraction from all this drama in my life. but of course, im heading into it straight on. which means a lot of not talking. a lot of tears. a lot of meaness. a lot of wanted to be cared for. and a lot of stuff thats not true. *sigh* its not like i can run away or anything. i got warped tour tickets today.. and the saves the day show is tomorrow. and then dashboard is coming up in may which we are also going to. soo yes. bluh! ill be back tomorrow probably late night.. and tell all about that show! ( who of course.. we are going with my ex boyfriend. ugh!) whatever ill get over it, im not going to let him ruain a perfectly awesome night. Also, im having a making pasta fedish, and i drinking coke icee addiction. im completly in love with them. i really want a icee machine. that would be so awesome. i also want a mini fridge and a mini microwave. aww. the greatness. well... im leaving soon to go to this neighbor hood thing.. a while back, one of my neighbors was shot and killed by the police for doing nothing and now they are coming back and telling us what " happend " you know that thats going to be all like.. oh yeah it wasnt my faltish stuff. buut i guess its good to have both stories. soo im going to that at 7, and im waiting for my friend inga to come because she has nothing better to do. now lemme fill you in on something, i have like two best friends. haley and inga. we call our sleves trop becasue its too hard to say haley and inga and nicole all the time. and then besides that, we have like 10 friends at westview, and like 10 at sunset, and like 10 from other schools. but you know, most of those people are the poeple who would talk to and hang out with but you wouldnt like hang out every day and call up in a time of need... you know? well yeah.. things were so much better when you didnt have to worry about everything.. we all kinda just gave up with the popular "ohmygoshiloveabercrombie" thing... wow.. its retarted how they shallow they can be.. ALL the time. well yes. i guess ill go now.. talk to some more people online. byebye -nicole.