It's Amazing What You'll Find When You Just Open Your Eyes Sometimes Love Can Leave You Blind But Still You Try To Cover All The Lies And Ignore The Signs Sometims Love Can Leave You Blind What I Thought Was A Certainty Has Left Me Spinning In Circles Again Comparing To Last Time That We Had Spoke It Seems To Me That Your Not Happy Like You Used To Be To You I'm Like A Flavor That Wouldn't Last You Took One Bite And Spat Me Out Real Fast And Now This Mark Remains It Will Never Ever Go Away... i'm not having a good day...i slept wonderfully...the best i've slept prolly in a month...woke up very refreshed...i did the bullshit my dad wanted me to do...then i tried calling megan all day long...cuz we were supposed to hang out...fun fun...well i get online and spend my day online...my girlfriend wanted me to help her pick out a new hairstyle for her...makes me wonder...cuz we've talked about it before...is she changing for me...is she trying to fit in better with the people i know...idk...but if she is she doesn't have to...i like her the way she is...i wouldn't change a thing about...in my eyes she's flawless...and her cutting her hair...just kinda scared me...will i miss her old hair...cuz i really like it like it is...but it could be really cool the way she wants to do it...i just don't know...my mind has been messing with me all day...so everything i say to her online gets misinterpreted...and we basically get mad at each other...i hate communicating over the internet...you can't show anything over the computer...its completly useless...well i try to apologize for how i've been acting (meanwhile my day with megan is shot we're gonna hang tomorrow so that sounds good to me no worries there) and she says something i don't understand...i try to get her to explain it...and she won't she treats me like i'm completly stupid...and leaves me...so there i sit...confused............frustrated.....even kinda angry....during all this...i've got brad asking me if i wanna do something...i blow him off...which i didn't wanna do....i've got stupid ims from people who wanted to prank me...i've got curt telling me party at mikah's...blow him off as well...i'm trying to post people on stlpunk and myspace at the same time...trying to clean up my computer and download music ALL AT THE SAME FUCKING TIME...it's stressful...well 6 o clock rolls around....time for guitar lessons...and i almost don't even feel like going....i just want to fix things i want things to be back like they were last night...but i go...right after courtney leaves online...soo...i run around the house getting my guitar together meanwhile tears are welling in my eyes...i get in the car and i put on the loudest music i can think of...i blast it...and i scream....scream at the top of my lungs i scream sooooo hard...harder then i ever have before...i'm screaming sooo hard i don't care what anyone around me thinks as i drive....i scream so hard i don't realize i'm crying until i get to the guitar place...but...i get there turn down the music and i can't find a parking place...there's no where to park...i get even more mad...but i finally find somewhere to park...and go in pay for the lesson...the guy looks cool enough...his names tom...we sit down...he teaches me some chords and scales...but the thing is i was calm...i picked up the guitar and nothing else mattered...i didn't think about a thing (quite different from the car ride over all i could think about was courtney) the lesson goes on and me and tom talk about story of the year...and all the cool stuff he's gonna teach me...all the metal riffs and stuff...but i gotta learn the basics first...he told me to bring anything in and he'll help me tab it out...and learn my favorite songs...i'm glad too cuz i have a hell of a time figuring out some stuff on my own...the guitar lesson ends...and i've got the biggest smile on my face...i couldn't wait to get home to practice the stuff he'd already taught me...so i drove home...put some soft music on the radio...i put anything on that made me happy...and i was...i felt sooo much better...and the drive home made me laugh and realize how stupid all of today had been...arguments over very little things...but at the same time made me feel a little horrible...so i drove faster...so i could get home...i wanted sooo badly to apologize to courtney...but i get home and she's away i guess i'll go practice more guitar...