this whole school organization thing is really working for me. it's actually making school a little bit easier. i can't stop thinking about courtney...and how much i care for her...she doesn't act the same towards me anymore...she never sounds excited to hear my voice anymore like she used to...i always think she's upset with me cuz she never sounds happy...but this new thomas kid seems to make her pretty happy...thats always good. i haven't seen her all week...and it's just wrong. i wish we both made more money and then we could both drive to each other all the time and see each other. i just hope something really bad is not gonna happen. she's just been acting really weird lately...and she seems like she hates herself more now than ever...idk band practice actually went really well...me and jordan wrote a bunch of guitar parts...and we made this cool melody part...we're gonna play some music at lunch tomorrow. i really hope this band thing goes good, cuz i'm not too good at school