Ok..well i fucked up real good this time. Me and caity drove around pointlessly for a while, looking for the guys, went to FucLee's to get her hoodie and i tried to get a cig off this black guy, we stopped the car and i was like hey and hes like hey mami and i was like u got a cig? hes like what? and i put my hand up to my mouth but it totally looked like i meant a joint and hes like nah i dont do..i dont um no so we drove off and then i realized what i did, he prolly thought we were some little stuck up bitches, were in like a brand new hot car, were on our phones, hollister clothes and were rolling threw the ghetto haha oh well. I gave some little kid a balloon x3 Anyways i got a bottle and we went behind the Ny and drank some, we stopped and visited Ash and Ziggy. We eventually came back to my house and found some shit to do and got ready and went out at like 10, we went to FucLee's but we drank and shit here so we were wasteddd going to FucLee's but it was good wasted, like i remember everything and we were laughing alot. But we were funneling and drinking at Fuc's and ok here it goes..i made out with Josh and kyle yelled at him to take me upstairs and to get out of his face and not to come back down, and i didnt get it, so i was sitting on the stairs and i was like i dont wanna go, and Josh was like nah you gotta come onnn and whatever so he carried me up the rest of the way and we were laying down and i was like i dont get it? whats wrong? what did i do?and i kept telling him that i wanted to talk to kyle and hes like nah kyle doesnt wanna talk to you right now. So fucking finally i left and went downstairs and i was like yo wheres kyle? Randy was like hes outside with Caity so i went out there and didnt see them but Corey scooped me up and hes like lets go talk, so we went outside and we were gonna walk but Kyle and Caity were sitting down the block talking so we sat on the front steps..we talked about so much stuff..i was crying :( hes really a hell of a kid. So we walked down to Kt and Kyle and i Kt was crying and shes like if you really like kyle dont do anything with Josh ok? promise me? and i promised and i hugged her and Corey was like ok lets go back..so we talked more and they came back so we eventually went back inside and i layed next to kyle and asked him please to tell me how he felt and tell me everything and he wouldnt..he kept telling me i was gonna regret everything tommrow when i was sober and hes like theres nothing to talk about danika your not stupid you know..but i just needed him to tell me you know? ugh i have noo clue whats going on. Last night really meant alot though.I dont know how to explain it but for the first time im scard. but he makes me feel so safe, like laying there with him, theres not anything that matters just for those minutes?