well, i'm waiting for steve to get out of work, i found this old survery that i had in an earlier entry and wanted to see how much my answers changed because that was like a year and a hlaf ago if not longer... --Random .: x Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first? a wall .: x What is the last thing you watched on TV? last night, something on MTV .: x Without looking, guess what time it is: " 4:30? .: x Now look at the clock. What is the actual time? 4:51 .: x With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? other people typing .: x When did you last step outside? What were you doing? like 30 mins ago, i was walking to the BCC library .: x Before you came to this website [started this survey], what did you look at? myspace .: x What are you wearing? jeans, and a cute top .: x Did you dream last night? yes .: x When did you last laugh? less than an hour ago before steve had to leave me to do math shit .: x What is on the walls of the room you are in? um nothing.. just white .: x Seen anything weird lately? only an asian singing in the middle of BCC at the top of his lungs to karry underwood haha .: x What is the last film you saw? um, not sure .: x If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first? I'd go to paris with steve, and go to every store there and buy anything that i like :) .: x If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do? not sure .: x Do you like to dance? yes, love it :) .: x George Bush: i can't say anythying bad about him, or steve will beat me haha .: x Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her? Alyssa :) .: x Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him? Christian .: x Would you ever consider living abroad? don't know .: x What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates? ikdk, anything he wants i guess Lasts Last Cigarette:: loooong time ago Last Alcoholic Drink:: last friday haha Last Car Ride:: on my way to BCC Last Kiss:: a little over an hour ago :) Last Good Cry:: awhile ago... :) Last Library Book checked out:: last year for psych Last Movie Seen in Theatres:: hmm, not sure The Omen??? Last Book Read:: Things Fall Apart, stupid book about black people i have to read for english Last Movie Rented:: Silent Hill i think Last Cuss Word Uttered:: idk lol Last Beverage Drank:: water... mmmm Last Food Consumed:: fucking Dunkin Donhuts this morning Last Crush:: Steven James Keator Last Phone Call:: Steve Last TV Show Watched:: something on MTV Last Time Showered:: this morning Last Shoes Worn:: AE shoes Last CD Played:: don't know Last Item Bought:: my puppy :) :) :) Last Download:: idk, i think something by TI Last Annoyance:: Steven!! Last Disappointment:: friends Last Soda Drank:: root beer Last Thing Written:: oh idk Last Key Used:: k Last Word Spoken:: bye Last Sleep:: last night Last IM:: Anna Last Sexual Fantasy:: well duh, i WAS on the phone with steve last night ;) Last Weird Encounter:: friday, everything was wierd Last Ice Cream Eaten:: awhile ago Last Time Amused:: today :) Last Time Wanting To Die:: duh, never... people who say they want to die only feel sorry for themselves Last Time In Love:: Right now, and forever more ♥ Last Time Hugged:: Today Last Time Scolded:: uhh, saturday by my loving boyfriend Last Time Resentful:: idk Last Chair Sat In:: this computer chair Last Lipstick Used:: lip gloss Last Underwear Worn:: red sessy lace panties Last Bra Worn:: Pink and Beautiful Last Shirt Worn:: blue tank, with over shirt Last Webpage Visited:: this one well, that consumed a bit of time, and steve should be here any minute now... Latta Mo-Fucka!!

well, its been forever since i wrote in this things. So i guess i'll write a few things. Nothing new really. Still with Steve, still perfect :) Steve is going to go back to college soon, so thats a good thins, i'm going to be a senior and i can't wait. Sneior pics in like a day, very excited. My friend brian just turned into a dad today, and i couldn't be happier for him. Little baby girl, and she's going to be soo cute, i can't wait to see her. My sister's about to have a baby soon, hopefully i'll have enough money to see him as soon as he's born. So many babies, i love them.. i swear i'm obssesed haha well i guess i'm done, lots of things to be excited about, like babies, and senior year, and getting my own place next year lol.. hmm life :) write later ♥

well, i'm really bored and waiting for Steve to get out of work. me and him are doing amazing. things are just so perfect. We spend so much time together, and on days that i don't get to see him, i miss him so much. It seems so crazy that i can't even beleive it. We're going on our 7 months;... 7 fucking months. I love him more then i could have ever known. Meeting him was the best thing that ever happend to me, and we're so in love. I couldn't imagine my life without him. so yea, i guess i'm having a pretty big "i miss steve" moment, wich i just happen to get all the time. I think i'm border line between really cute and obsessive haha.well anaywayz, he's amazing and i love him sooo much. write another time.... ♥ Steven James Keator, your simply amazing.

well... i've been thinking alot about moving in with my dad. Just because things would be so much easier. Since i live in binghamton, it takes me like at least 20 mins to get to school in the morning, from my dads, its at like 10. Which means its also closer to all my friends in endwell. And its like 5 mins from all my friends in maine instead of 30 mins!! That includes Steve's house. I spend so much time and money going from steve's house to my moms house, and it sucks. I'm really thinking about moving here for the summer, and seeing how it goes. If i like i better, then i think i might stay here for my senior year too. I'm not sure exactly what i'm gunna do yet, i have to talk to my mom about it though. And since Steve got his lisence and is gunna have his car on the road sometime next week, so if my mom takes my car away (wich i really hope she doesn't since i paid for it with my own money) he'll still be able to see me, cuz he will be able to pick me up. So idk... i was just writting this down cuz i'm feeling pretty sad. So maybe i'll write again in a few days... ♥

Steve Passed His Road Test well, i'm so proud of him for passingn that shit, he worked really hard for it within the last few weeks. He's getting his car all fixed up and everything, and his parents said that it should be able to drive next week. Wich that5 is really awsome = D Aslo, i got a 100 on my boat project for PST lol. We tipped it at first, but then once we got the hangof it, we did pretty good. I'm kinda glad we had it the first day because now we just got it all out of the way. and our boat actuyally floated and supported us really good, very surprising. So i guess thats all i have to say for now. I'll write next time something else happens. I love you Steven James. You mean the world to me, and there's no way i could ever live without you. My life would be so incomplete if we never met. That very night, my whole world changed, and i'm so happy because of it. I love you with all my heart and soul baby. I know we'll be together forever because we have been there for eachother for almost 7 months, and every single day my love for you only grows stronger. Your amazing baby. I love you so much ♥

Today was mine and Steve's 6 months. Nothing really special happend considering the fact that i was at my dads all weekend. But it was amazing that i got to spend the day with him, and my dad was pretty cool about him being over. Although we did have to help clean the yard lol. But anyways, today was amazing. We just held eachother and played all day long, and he got me a movie and a chocolate rose from gertude hawk = ) I felt really bad though, because i haven't had a chance to go anywhere since i don't have my lisence and my mom won't take me anywhere. But i'm going to get him something. I can't believe we have been dating for 6 months already. The hours just pass into days and the days into weeks, and then quickly into months. Time has just past soo fast. I love him so much. They have been the most amazing months of my entire life. He's so and completely perfect. We will be together forever, i know we will. They say that you never know if its lust or love in the beginning, but after 6 months if you feel the same way, then you know your in love. And my feelings are so much stronger for Steve than they were a few months ago, even a few weeks ago. Because every day that goes by i love him more and more. He's so amazing and we will always be together. I love you sweetie, the first 6 months of our relationship have been wonderful, and i know its only a little amount of time compared to the rest of our lives. But i can't wait to spend every day with you. Every moment we have shared has been so perfect, and i know there are only better and more amazing memories to make together. I love you with all my heart baby ♥

well, i thought i would write an entry to give Steve something to read when he goes back to school on monday ♥ I can't wait to see him later tonight, and wow. I missssssss himmm. Maybe i'll think of something to write later, but right now i'm just kinda chillen. Laterrrr Beeeeches!!!

well i got grounded on tuesday, and i think i'm gunna cry... i aven't seen Steve in 2 days. I've only talked to him on the phone for like 20 mins each day. Things were going really good, i mean yea i was starting to think my socil life was going to shit cuz i wasn't as close to some people. But i've started hanging out with alot of new people, and let me tell you, their Amazing ♥ And i miss everyvody this week. I'm listening to very sad songs and missing Steve soooo much. I love him with all of my heart, and i'm always going to. My mom even said she could see us getting married, haha. I love his family, and eveything. There is nothing that that gets in the way. We don't fight alot, we always work things out for even the itty bitty stuff that doesn't always matter. Like i want to do something that he doesn't that weekend. I mean seriously thats amazing to be together for 5 months and not have a single big fight. He wanted me to get on so that i could write soemthing for him to read in school tomorrow, so here it is baby. And its straight from my heart. I love you ♥

well... february doesn't have a 30th so me and Steve are syaing our 4 months is today... I'm so happy i'm with him. He is the best person i've ever had in my life and i don't know what i would do without him. I've never had anyone treat me the way he does. In one month we are going to be the longest relationship i have ever been in. I know thats not all that long. But when you just don't find the right person and you know that he's wrong for you... You just have to end it. Wich is why i'm going to be with Steve forever. Because he is the one for me, and we're never going to loose eachother. I love him with all of my heart. I have never in my life felt this way about a person. When i'm with him, the whole world seems to go away, and its just us. Completely and totally ourselves. It's so amazing the way he makes me feel like that. Sometimes just talking about how muhc i love him makes me get tears in my eyes, because i can't beleive how in love wih him i am. I honestll beleive he is my one true love. We will be together forever, and i cant wait to share my whole futuer with him. Sharing all the memories we have of eachother, and the problems we are going to face, and overcome together. It's all so wonderfull to think how he found me... and how he saved me. Baby, without you i don't know where i would be. i love you with all my heart and every moment i'm not with you, i miss you so much. Your everything to me... I love you ♥

well Steve got me these wicked cute gold, heart, diamond earings yesterday, and i took them to school cuz i didn't have enough time to put them in at home. Well i went to gym and left my purse in the locker room for not even 5 mins and then came back down to only find my Amazing earings GONE! Yea i fucking hate stupid cunts that can't keep their hands on their own fucking stuff.

wow i'm really bored, and Steve just started his class like one minute ago, he left 20 mins aog though to get there... ugh this sucks... hmmmm ♥ Favorites ♥ food- hmm pizza? color- blue and pink name- Allyson friend- Brittany and Steve memory- the day me and Steve got together playground equiptment- the swings :) song- someday-britney spears hehe flavor of candy- lemon or strawberry fruit- strawberries veggie- hmmm baby carrots soda- sprite fruit drink- orange juice expression- "We had a moment at the dinner table i saw it, it was there" shoe you have- my american eagle ones :) number- 21 screen name you've had- x3luvablexlush21 pattern- uhh idk book- I never read the Notebook, or Narnia, but i saw the movies and i loved them :) magazine- teen people i guess? shirt- hollister sweater pair of pants- hollister pants, or SP jeans dog breed- golden retreiver :) store- hollister accessory- purse hair color- blonde family member- my mom season- summer day of the year- christmas and my birthday birthday you've had- hmmmm like.. my 14th month- march day of the week- friday or saturday holiday- chrsitmas time of day- uhhh depends imaginary friend- none at the moment snack- chocolate cupcakes sport- softball i guess jiggy you do- idk band- the Click Five singer- hmmm idk too many to say brand of clothing- hollister brand of shoes- anything comfy that looks cute jewelry- my gold heart and diamond necklace Steve got for me subject in school- english friends parents- brittany's or steve's radio station- 104.1 weather- warm and sunny ♥ current ♥ shirt- pink hollister one pair of pants- Sp jeans shoes- hmm my cool ones from payless socks- uhh white ankle socks makeup- eyeliner, mascara, and lip gloss hairstyle- down or back in a clip chair you're sitting in- a comfy computer chair at BCC food you're eating- nothing but i ust had pizza song you're listening to- nothing friend you're talking to- none at the moment, but i just said hi to matt, kurt and andrew (some of steve's friends) boyfriend- Steven James Keator ♥ bestfriend- Brittany Barton people at home- John place you're at- BCC computer room AIM screenname- x3luvablexlush21 movie you're watching- none at the moment, but when i was at home i watched Along Came Polly bladder- uhhhhh my current bladder? pet nearest to you- my dog molly at home book nearest to you- steve's *Cough* i mean my *Cough* Essentails of Psychology book time- 1:22 well steve has been in class for like 22 minutes now... and i still have another 40 minstues to wait.. oh gee YES! wrte later ♥

well i came to pick up Steve and take him out to lunch, and we decided that we wanted to hang out when he got out of his last class too... sooo here i am in the computer room all alone, while my baby is in his class... *wines* oh well... i'm proud of him this semester. he's really getting his work done, and he hasn't skipped a class yet, i know it just started but if he keeps doing what he's doing then he should get really good grades and actually pass everything that he's supposed to. well i'm really bored in here because there is nothing to do when your on the computer by yourself. I have to call some people for work to switch with me on friday ugh... i hate work. i have to go in tonight, from 4-7:30 at least its a short night though, and i hope i do front cuz then i don't have to stand near the freezing cold window while my arms are all wet from doing the stupid dishes. Well i'm really gunna get going now... bye ♥

A N S W E R - T R U T H F U L L Y 1. do you like anyone?: yesss 2. do they know it? uh.. i would hope so 3. simple or complicated? uhhh both I N - T H E - L A S T - M O N T H - H A V E - Y O U 4. had sex: actually no 5. bought something: of course 6. gotten sick?: yea 7. been hugged?: yyyyeaa 8. felt stupid?: haha yea.. like today 9. been to the theatre?: yes 10. missed someone: every day 11. failed a test: haha yea 12. ate cereal: yep 13. danced crazy: yea 14. gotten your hair cut?: nope 15. lied: not really :-/ U N I Q U E 16. nervous habits?: i play with my hair alot 17. Are you double jointed?: no 18. Can you roll your tongue?: yea 19. Can you raise one eyebrow? nope 20. Can you cross your eyes?: yea 21. Do you make your bed daily?: no 22. Do you think you are unique?: uhhh kinda H A V E - Y O U - E V E R 23. said "I love you": yes 24. given money to a homeless person?: nope 26. waited all night for a phone call?: in my life... yes 27. snuck out?: yea 28. sat and looked at the stars?: yyyyyeeeeaaaa :) M A N N E R S 29. do you swear?: yea 30. do you ever spit?: not like guys do 31. you cook your own food?: soemtimes 32. you do your own chores?: yea 33. you like beef jerky?:its ok 34. you like pepsi or coke? pepsi 35. you're happy with your hair?: sometimes 36. you own a dog?: yea... 1 37. you spend your money wisely? haha no! 38. do you like to swim?: i like hanging in the pool 39. when you get bored do you call a friend? yea 40. are you patient?: nope D O - Y O U - P R E F E R 41. flowers or angels?: flowers 42. gray or black?: black 43. color or black and white photos?:depends 44. lust or love?: love 45. sunrise or sunset?: sunset 46. m&ms or skittles? skittles 47. rap or rock?: hmmm depends, i like some of both 48. staying up late or waking up early?: Staying up late 49. being hot or cold? hot 50. Winter or Fall?: fall 51. left or right: right 52. having 10 acquaintances or 2 best friends: 2 best friends 53. sunshine or rain? sunshine 54. vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream?: chocolate 55. boys or girls?: boys well that was fun... bye ♥

well its a snow day and i just felt like writting because i'm really bored. not much has gone on really... me and Steve are doing really good and i love him very much :) hehe. I actually woke up kinda early today, for no school i mean... then i had to clean my room ugh, and now i'm just chillen like a villen. I'm going to be taking a shower soon, and then picking up the most uncool kid at BCC (shhh, he thinks he's the coolest one there HAHA) and then doing something with him and taking the little brother to soccer practice... If i'm bored enough maybe later i'll take a survey or something. Bye ♥

well this christmas was a really good one. I got a cell phone, and a CD player for my car :) And steve got me a really pretty gold necklace. I like it so much♥ well i guess i just wanted to write a little something. i don't really write in here much anymore, i guess i just don't much feel like it. So, i'm gunna go cuz Steve is supposed to call me soon :) bye

well yesterday i went to New York City with my gramma, a family friend, and her daughter who is around my age. It was pretty fun. The streets and buildings were really pretty for christmas. And we went to see the big tree :) lol I guess we really just went to see this christamas show with the "rockettes"? i think... anywayz, it was actually really cute. And it was in Radio City Music Hall, which was gorgeous. during most of the day my gramma stopped in all these stores, like macy's and saks. Wich didn't really have anything good to buy, but were amazing inside. The christmas secorations were prettier in there, then in our whole city i think. It was.. wow lol So yea... we went back to the bus since i didn't get to do any shopping of my own! grr lol so... i fell asleep and on the way home we watched flightplan, and march of the peguins, wich neither movie was all that great so i fell asleep :) Came home, called my mom, and then called steve. I guess he's not doing so good, and uh i found some stuff out that really pissed me off. But w.e. i have to go get ready for work because life just simply sucks. lol bye♥

well i'm going to say EVERYTHING that happend, so that i don't forget one moment of this amazing weekend. I had such a good time. on thursday, our flight was delayed 2 hours, so the airport called my house and told us. So i didn't have to wake up at 5, instead it was 7 :) Then i got up and just put my hair up, my gramma met us at my dads, and we loaded up her car. When we got half way to the airport, my dad realized that he left some papers on the washer, that said all of our registrations for the plane tickets, hotel, and car rental, cuz he did everything on line. But we ended up gettting our tickets at the airport fine. I was really scared to fly in a plane. I like, started breathing really heavy when we got going and let off the runway haha. But once we got up there i was like, wow this isn't bad :) Had to get off at the airport in Atlanta? to switch and fly again. When we got to Fort Myers, it like 3:30-4 and we still had to drive down to naples. Anwayz, my dad had issues with the car place, cuz of course, he left the papers on the washer machine, so my gramma just got us one on her account. We got to the hotel in Naples and it was kinda nice, not too bad. Everything was so gorgeous down there, it was 80some degrees and wow. We called Jessica when we got there and she told us to come down to her house. We ended up going to the wrong hoouse cuz my dad got lost haha. Anwayz, Alexys is the cutest little thing in the whole world. Friday i hun out with all the bridesmaids getting my nails done and what not, planning things out for saturday, at night we had the rehersal and then the rehersal dinner. It was fun, Alexys was the cuutest, except down at the beach when the wedding re. was going on my poor old sister was getting called brideZilla haha. I had to spend the night at penny's house, with Jess, Pennny, And Tiffany... Some of jess's close friends. We went to Wal-Mart cuz Jess was getting some grey's, we went to get hair die, but Matt and Louis And Derek (Jessica's brother) all showed up, and matt was so drunk haha. It was cute the way, Jess thought it was after 12 so she like darted in the clothes rack, and he came over looking for her, and then she jumped out and grabbed on to him... it was cuuuute... But we left around 12:05 cuz Matt couldn't see Jess since it was the day of her wedding. On Saturday, It was her wedding. The guys tux's got all messed up, and then it rained, and jess was pissed. But well, her wedding ended up being so cute. Then after there were pictures and all that good stuff. We went back to the hotel where the reception was at. Her friends are hillarious haha. the reception was alot of fun. Except ronnie kept pulling me out on the dance floor, and i just did not feel comfortable dancing with a bunch of drunk 25 year olds haha. I tell you what though, Jessica and her friends talk of nothing but sex, and getting shit haha. It pretty funny listening to them. Ronnie and Louis ended up going to the bar and getting me an Alabama Slammer. Peer Pressure leet me tell you. It was good, i highly recomend it ;) Sunday, we just went to the beach. My daddy bought me a bathing suit :). Although i didn't wear it or anything. I just walked the pier. When we got half way out there, there was a dolphin that came up right near where we were, and then there was more after that, they were like eating or something. But it was really cool. Looking over the ocean seing dolphins and the beach behind it. oh man, it was gorgeous. I neer wanted to go home. We went to see Jess and all her friends were at the house again, And matt and jess were finally a newlywed couple.. awww. We ended up having a grill out thing. Steak, yummm. Matt had some everglade seasoning? idk.. but it was wicked good. haha. Wesayed there forwhile. Played with alexys, and had some good conversations making fun of dad when we were growing up. haha monday was tough. We spent the whole morning and afternoon with Jess, Matt, and Alexys. took alot of pictures, and then we all knew we had to leave. Jess was saying goodbye to my dad, and started crying, wich made all of us really sad. We all had to say good bye, and cutie alexys over there. says " where you going?" and i go, we have to go back to grandpa's house, and she's like "why? can't yoou stay at my house?" and i was like no baby, we have to go far away. and she goes "i don't want you to go far away" and then she puted, wich made me really sad. Jess invited me back, maybe spring break or the summer, have to figure it out, but i'm DEFF. going back, even if it is all by myself. The flight home wasn't all that bad. It was stprming, so it was pretty bumpy. We ended up getting home at 12, and then i went straight to bed. Well i'm gunna go now, cuz this entry is huge and i'm gunna call brittany. Bye ♥

well tomorrow i'm going to Florida :) My sister is getting married this weekend and so we're going down there for that, i'm going to be gone untill Monday night, the 21st. So i think i'll have a good time, i hope so anwayz. We're flying down and i'm really excited to fly in a plane, i haven't since i was like 8. So thats cool i spent all day with Steve. He met me at school, he came in at 2:30 to find me, and i guess the new principle gave him shit for it!! so anywayz, Steve had to wait for me by my car, wich i ended up staying after so i didn't get down there till 3:15. He walked down in the rain all the way from his house, just to spend an extra hour with me. Gosh i love him so much. Well, i had to go to the bank, so we went to the one in the mall, and hung out there for awhile. He bought me some more food at frienly's and then we shared an iceream thing :) We went to his house untill 8:30 and i had the most amazing time. When i left i just couldn't say goodbye, there has only been one day when i didn't talk to him since i met him. And now theres going to be 5 days. Well, right before i left, he pulled out this piece of paper... and on it, it was like "Dear Stephanie, i hope you have a good time in Florida but i'll be missing you so much." It was a letter to me, saying everything that he loves about me, so that i'll think of him when i'm down there and that when i'm sad i can just read that and smile. He's so sweet. I read it, and my smile was SO huge :) I love him soooooo much Anywayz, i got home and what not, i have to take a shower, maybe try on my dress, and then get it into a bag... i forgot a bunch of shit at my moms that i wanted to bring, and i'll just have to live without it i guess... So yea... i guess i'm gunna go .... I love you with all my heart baby. You're the best thing thats ever happend to me, and i swear i'm never gunna let you go. I'll miss you alot this weekend and i'll deffinatly call you when i get home. Love You ♥

well i hung out with Steve today... He came over, and i got in a thing with my mom, Its funny... he saw my real family and he still stays :) well yea. It was amazing. I REALLY beleive that i love him. Alot... i know it sounds crazy but i really, really do. I started singing fn songs and stuff, and showing him what kind of music i listen to. And then i let him hear the song that reminds me of him most. And towards the end of the night, i was dancing with him and playing at the same time to this one song. But like... i full out sang to him. "when you kiss me" by shania twain. I Really sang to him. No one in my entire life has ever heard my voice, i was in chorus in 9th grade and not even they heard me really sing. I was always really embarressed, but steve says he loves my voice :) i love him.. well it was an amazing moment and i just wanted to make a note of it ♥

well Friday i had to work, and then i went to see Saw2 with britt, tony, and steve. It was fun.. i had a good time even though we almost didn't get in! haha, those loser movie people. Well anywayz, the movie was realyl good. If anyone is thinking of going to see it.. GO! At some of the gross parts when i would cringe, Steve would hold me tight, and kiss my cheek. It was veryyy cute :) His mom picked us up, and took me tony and britt all to her house. Saturday i had to go to work at fricken 10:30!!! ugh. i hate work.. i got out at 3:00 though, and i cme home and founfd this note that said to pick up Steve, and like, he wasn't home when i tried to call him, and he wasn't on line or anything. So right before my family got home, he called and said he was coming over then soo :) i'm glad everything turned out good, So when he got here, me, steve, my mom, john, vito, and matthew all went out to Little Venice for dinner. It was good. Then we came home and watched The Notebook :) I love that movie... He really likes my family, and they really like him. SO thats a HUGE plus. My mom had to take him home a little after 9 though cuz i couldn't drive... and my mom was being nice and going out later than usual lol So today i woke up at like 8 cuz my family can't keep quite? lol, i went to the coffee shop down the street and got myself soemthing to eat sicne my family went out for breakfast and there is nothing in my house to eat. lol... i only have 10 dollars to spend fort he whole week cuz my mom only lets me take 30 out of my pay checks for the week, and so i owe brittany 20... and that leave me 10.. so i won't be going shopping this week lol well thats all i feel like writting.. i don't even really write in here anymore.. i guess just when i'm bored? i don't even know... bye♥